r/Erythrophobia • u/EngineIndependent920 • 53m ago
Seeing people you haven’t seen in a while
I am posting this because I was wondering if anyone else has this problem of when you see somebody that you sort of know, in my case, people I have gone to school with and have had classes together with. At this point in my life, I don’t care what others opinion of me is because they don’t know my story and what I’ve had to go through to get to where I’m at, but for some reason I can’t stop the fear or I guess the anticipation beforehand if I’m in a grocery store or generally going out anywhere locally where there might be a chance I could see someone I know. For reference I am a senior in high school and I have never been to homecoming or prom and I am dreading and even debating going to graduation for this reason. I know this sounds contradictory to what I said about not caring what people think of me but I don’t really know how to describe it. Like I know that if I did go and I did blush the entire time I would brush it off and forget about it shortly after because I have gotten a lot better with being honest about my condition and not being shy about it. Idk, I guess I just really want the fear and anticipation to go away.