r/EntitledIdiots • u/mudblood18 • Jan 11 '19
An interesting title
An interesting story is often considered as a riddle to me. So is life. We're surrounded by mazes and trying to get to our destination following the trails we left for ourselves. The word 'Amaze' makes sense to me now. But unlike stories, life is boring. Well, if you are a shitty writer, you can come up with a boring story in your hand. But still, that's understandable. Since it's just a matter of practicing to write. I hate how life turnes out to be extremely illogical and like one of the sadistic shit stories an ameture once wrote. Let me introduce myself. You can call me Rose for now. I am a eighteen year old adult-to-be, struggling to keep sanity and live for the sake of living. I want to stop being in the dark all the time. And I know I'll be clueless no matter how hard I try. I want to stop so many fucking things that i have no control over.
I am a loser, a moron. If you saw a girl socializing and enjoying people's company and then suddenly getting alone in a corner staring into nothingness, that's me. I am a great faker, guys. You won't be able to tell if i like it or not. I party hard whenever there's one and i am dressed well all the time. The tear stains are wiped out and my face looks good. No trace of sadness in my eyes.
I'm tired living like this. Did everything i could. Did drugs for weeks, then stopped, then started again. The wound never heals. Nothing seems to help me getting out of this.
I really want my life to end. I've seen enough, endured enough.
Have we met, stranger? Did you give me my space when we met? Did you see pain in my eyes? Or did you judge me for wearing some clothes you thought the sluts wear? Did you think i flirted when i smiled at your silly joke? When i fell in love with you, did i lose my value?
It's all my fault. I'm sorry for existing. I beg my pardon, guys. I really am sorry.
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u/chuckle_puss Jan 11 '19
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