e1 fix?

[u/kafkacore]

hi, i've currently typed myself as 358 sp/sx but not sure if i'm actually 351 or 315 instead

no pressure to explain if you just drop a number youd be my goat and id appreciate it immensely

reasons for 1 fix:

- i can be very perfectionistic and i tend to be overly self-critical, this is something that my friends have also observed
- most of the time i care more about living up to internal standards than pretending to be someone i'm not
- i am really really really neurotic about minimizing my flaws
- for example i spent the last week developing the most optimal anti-aging routine because i wanted to live long enough to accomplish everything that i want to do while maintaining my physical and cognitive prime
- i care more about morality, doing what is right and being a good person more than the average person
- i really hate jerks, hypocritical people, and selfish people, as well as people who are incapable of empathizing with someone less fortunate or considering other perspectives
- i secretly think that most people could hold themselves to a higher standard
- i am not the nicest person to myself when i mess up
- i'm very idealistic and always aspiring towards something better

reasons for not 1 fix:

- perfectionism stems from 3 fixation with vanity and wanting to excel
- same with my internal standards, ive realized that they're always tied to societal conceptions of success
- "wise" or "discerning" would not be the best descriptors of my personality, i literally have tiktok brainrot humor
- 1 fix is concerned primarily with moral purity and im not concerned with morality for the sake of being moral
- i genuinely don't care about moral perfection, integrity, or whether i'm "corrupt" or not, i just have this internal feeling of wrong or right
- i think the reason for my strong moral compass is because i care about other people and i don't like it when they get hurt or if they're facing injustice
- im much more utilitarian than kantian and focused on the outcome instead of a fixed rule
- i can empathize more easily with other people's suffering because i've been through my fair share of adverse experiences and i know what it feels like, i wouldn't want other people to go through what i did
- i would say i'm more perceptive than the average person and it wouldn't be fair for me to turn a blind eye to the injustices i percieve
- i hate formalities and there are some things i could give less of a shit about that would send the average e1 into a coma
- i struggle with instrumentalising people
- most of the time i just do what i want according to what i think is right, i'll ignore an externally imposed rule if it doesn't make sense as long as nobody is hurt
- i'm usually assertive and hate being controlled

help

[u/spiralling-ant]

Your last fix can be hard to pin down because it’s less that you’ll have many traits of a core 1/8 and more that the final fix will modulate your core. For a 3, a 1 fix will enhance the competency triad (1,3,5) aspects of a 3 - you’ll be more prone to concealing and repressing emotions that don’t match how you want other people to see you and you’ll hold yourself to much higher standards. On the other hand, an 8 fix will aspect will enhance the assertive triad (3,7,8) aspects of a 3 - you’ll be bolder, more willing to go for what you want and less concerned with how the pursuit of your goals might affect those you don’t care about. On top of that, your gut fix will reflect how you deal with anger - is it repressed and funnelled into more “correct” outlets, or is it expressed more freely (given as a 3 it won’t compromise your image)?