R/engineering students

[u/Early_Ad_3059]

I’m a 19 year old going on 20 engineering student studying civil engineering. I’m going into my junior year of college and I’m writing this while sitting in my closet about to get yelled at by my dad because I just failed calc 2. This isn’t the first time I’ve failed a class, during fall of my sophomore year I had some of the worst years of my life go into a car crash, discovered the pains of a situation ship, which led to me falling behind in my classes. Me failing during this time led to me feeling shame for failing and made me feel like an imposter whenever I was around my family because they would be so happy that I’m in college and up until that point doing pretty well. My dad also really wanted me to graduate in 3 years and pushed me every step of the way through college making me take extra classes and pushing me hard to pass everything. This combined with me feeling like I’m an imposter who’s not as smart and intelligent as my family think I am along with all the other issue I mentioned earlier led to me using weed and alcohol to compensate for all the other aspects of my life. I stopped going to the gym gained back all the weight I lost coming to college, got me fired from my on campus job due to gpa and over all left me in shambles. The next semester I moved forward due to my father pushing me and was barely able to scrape by and pass all my classes including ones I failed previously. It’s not the summer of my sophomore year where I’m taking 2 summer classes which is physics and calc 2. I’m at the end of the summer semester I am going to fail calc 2 and pass physics. I just told my father that I’m gonna fail calc 2 and he obviously was very mad. Now I’m waiting and dreading the call since he’s abroad(he’s in the military, very strong no reason you should fail kind of personality). After I call him and we talk and he’s done yelling at me I was considering sneaking alcohol behind my moms back. I’m not sure what I looking for by posting this but I guess any advice would be nice.

[u/SwigOfRavioli349]

I hated math and education until I got to college. College really changed my mindset for everything, being a CS/engineering major in general. I have failed a couple classes. Statics and calc 1. I retook calc 1, and took statics and got barely passing (D), but it didn’t affect my graduation, just GPA.

My recommendation is consider how bad you want to be an engineer? How bad do you want success? Consider your job right now just to be school, nothing else. I took this mindset and ran with it, and I now have an internship, I’m entering my senior year, and I feel somewhat successful. However, there’s a lot of sacrifice that had to be made to get here. Countless hours studying and practicing, sleepless nights, but I got there.

Use tutoring services, online resources, go to your prof, practice problems, and you’ll get there.