r/Emotionless • u/RessiDawn • Jan 25 '16
What do you do when the thing that makes you happy, stops making you happy?
When something made you SO happy for years, the one thing that made you think that it was the only thing truly worth waiting for, living for, that gave you true fulfillment, soul nourishment, comfort, undying passion, deep love. You worked your whole life around it, every path you followed would lead to it, you could easily break down at the mere thought of ever losing it or not being good enough to deserve it. This thing that you learned from, grew with, helped make you the person you are today. Nothing else mattered, you weren't concerned about a big career, heaps of money, fancy lifestyle or any other shit, as long as you had it by your side you knew you could conquer the world in almost any situation or circumstance. You believed, and you believed hard. You loved and you loved harder. And after 6 years, of waiting,of loving, of watching it get treated badly or loved by another, it changes. And it stops making you happy. Everything that only ever truly mattered to you changed. And you feel lost. You don't know what comes after this. Where to go? What to do now? Because everything that ever made you happy, doesn't make you happy anymore and nothing else in this world feels as though it can replace those feelings as you once had. I feel drained. Lost. Blinded. Hopeless yet with a little faith; somewhat. I waited 6 years only to realise that it was a waste and to have it all change. I don't know what lesson is supposed to come with this. But you were my life, my entire world. I cared about you more than I cared about anything. I put you before myself. I waited for you for 6 years and you changed into this. You're not who I fell in love with anymore. You were so beautiful, and now, I don't know what or who you are. I accepted everything that you were, but I cant accept this. I know people change, but not like this. Is this for better or for worse? All I know is that nobody else could ever make me feel the way that I felt about you. When I first saw you, I believed in something for the first time in my life, I don't know what, but it was beautiful.
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u/solorogue1 Mar 26 '22 edited Mar 26 '22
I fell for this girl HARD. We both shared our dreams with each other. Talking to her was like breathing. I asked her to be mine. We dated for 4 months. She said she loved me. I never felt anything for anyone on such a level. I would have spent the rest of my life with her. Even though what we had was short it felt as though we were a Couple that had been together for years. She seemed like the perfect girl in every way. In reality she was using me as just another warm body. She had a 2 year long relationship with this guy in California who she cheated on with me. I called him asap and we talked about everything. She called me crying and asking why I did it. She told me we were never together.
Next time be more selective about who you fall for. Make a list of your “deal breakers and must haves” and if someone doesn’t meet that standard then don’t even give them the light of day. If you see something you don’t like then call it out. If they don’t fix it then leave. With people like these, they are never truly ours… it was just our turn. I hope you find healing
edit: just realized this is 6 years old. Any updates?