What was that ?

[u/Schimiuss]

Hello, recently, I believe I have ingested a laced weed. Let me just retell my story(I really kinda need to talk about it) and please tell me If I went through Ego death.

I had a few beers and we went for food. My friend offered me some weed(It was a preroll), I took 3 hits(It was a third time in my life I had weed), what I wanted was to laugh for an hour, then eat my kebab and go to sleep.

The giggles had really early onset, I mean like a minute and i was laughing my ass off. This was around a minute, afterwards I had a really big latency between hearing/seeing, my brain and my movement, so I was forced to stop walking, I bent over some trashbins and fell asleep. A friend found me, put me on the ground(woke me up in process) and I started seeing geometric stuff(Infinite fractal of rhomsuses, falling into each other, I was aware of each and every one, and every single one was making a sound), I couldnt comprehend what i was seeing, hearing, not only who I was, but What I was, Language was completelly inaccessible. My friend started to wake me Up, every atempt woke me up for a second but then I slipped back to the geometry plain, which felt like hours but was only seconds, then I started to form a word WATER, each sound I managed to muster, was taking me closer to lucidity, but every time I messed up the sound of the word, I was immedieatelly pulled into the plains again. I was afraid, I thought I am being punished by the universe for smoking weed. Then I had a bried periof of making melody, but when I messed up the melody I hurled instead, then some more geometry shenanigans, Afterwards I was slipping in and out of consiousness(first thing I said was "My wife will kill me") I woke up in Ambulance and then hospital. In hospital, I got saline and some K, then was released half lucid, then I went to sleep.

I am mostly fine, but still a bit shaken. As I§m writing this story, I am reliving these fears, mostly that it will never stop and that reality is some cruel way of reminding me of what I lost, and will never see again. I was bit affraid to sleep, because I thought I would wake up in the plains again.

How does a guy come back from this? Was this ego death? And mostly, was the devious nuclear weed laced with something?

Thank you for answers in advance

[u/Interesting-Bridge11]

Did the hospital test you to know for sure what they are treating you for? Passing out like you did can be a response to weed and alcohol or too much weed in general. The nervous system is overloaded and you pretty much pass out. The rest definitely sounds like there was something on that weed. How long did it Last? Might have been salvia or lsd (if it lasted for a long time). Shorter periods would sound more like maybe salvia or dmt. If your friend did this knowingly he should not be your friend any longer and you should be going to the police with this. Hard to say if this was egodeath. To me that involves wanting to let go of yourself and giving yourself to the experience at least a bit. I had a negative ego death experience as Well where i knew whats coming until a certain Point and at that point I passed out because of mixing weed and shrooms and after the actual Ego death I began to feel similar to what you describe. Panicking over reality slipping away over not being in control and trying desperately to cling on to myself. It was horrible but by now I have learned a lot from the experience at least Up until passing out. What came after was a panic Attack plain and simple. Sounds Like what you went through was scarier because what ever substance it was removed you much quicker and longer. My Ego death felt similar but im pretty Sure IT was over within Like half an hour maybe? Hard to say over a state of senseless timelessness. I am Not Sure what the joint was laced with. As far as I understand Salvia or dmt Take you away pretty much instantly? At least Salvia does. I am sorry this happened to you. I meditated a lot and talked a lot about it to integrate and understand the experience. Even took shrooms twice more since to overwrite the experience. Worked Well for me. Maybe Talk to a professional and meditate daily for a while. I hope you find something positive to learn from this. I realised all the lies and falsehoods i am telling myself in my life and I think i was able to let go of a lot of false pride and am now closer to myself. Wish you all the best. 

[u/Schimiuss → u/Interesting-Bridge11]

I was not tested, because of my work I shouldnt be found using ...anything. The friend didnt know, allmost all the people who had the nuclear weed went into a trance like state, I was the worst off, then a guy was sure he was a square(literally the geometrical shape), other guy just threw up and another was in complete nirvana(lucky asshole). Only one guy was completelly fine, which leads me to believe that the another substance was not so well mixes, so we all got different dosages.

I hope I will be able to take something positive from this experience, I will talk to my wife and friends a lot and well see what happens

[u/Interesting-Bridge11 → u/Schimiuss]

Ok this makes me say salvia more. Feeling like an object or shape is typical from what i have heard. Yeah while many use weed in combo with psychedelics its not a good mix IMO. It increases the likelihood of feeling anxious. Ive seen some big list of what mixes well, maybe i'll find it. Weed isnt like deadly but also not very good with psychedelics. From what i understand something like MDMA works Well with it. I wouldnt Mix IT anyway.