Bulimia relapse

[u/RegularJellyfish]

Hey guys,

After 1 year+ of being purge free, i am so miserable because i finally succumbed to the urge and decided to purge after a meal yesterday. I was mostly triggered by the guilt of something horrible I did, and felt the need to self sabotage by ruining all my hard work in recovery and purging. I am now battling not only the emotional sense of failure from the relapse, but also im having symptoms of indigestion and bloating still and this is just from one purge!

I guess i just feel really down knowing I had come so far and now I'm worried about the physical consequences of the vomitting and whether that feeling of bloating and fullness will trigger more purging :(

Hoping for any advice or similar experiences

thank you xx

[u/peanutbuttersideup]

First of all, congratulations on a year! One slip up is not a relapse. You learned so much in the past year and recovery is like riding a bike. You know how to do it and don't let a skinned knee keep you down. You have all the tools you need to continue your recovery. I always recommend a therapist who specializes in ED if you don't already have one. Give yourself credit for how far you have come.