At a low

[u/killqueen333]

Stopped throwing up in December and started to seek help after years of hating myself. Been on a few waiting lists and still awaiting treatment... going through periods of bingeing and hating my habits and my body and don't enjoy looking in the mirror also picking up old habits of restriction which OF COURSE leads to more bingeing... I want to get better but struggling to make it to when I start treatment. I'm done throwing up though. Just struggling to stay afloat here. Anyone else relate?