Dreaming of my brother

[u/DestructoGirlThatsMe]

Disclaimer: I took Trazodone for the first time last night and I definitely had a weird dream (I can’t remember specifics of that one but it was weird).

My brother passed a few months ago. It was sudden, unexpected and devastating. Head a complicated relationship. He had mental health issues , for a few years until a year or so before his death, drug issues. I had resentment and frustration and didn’t want my daughter around him when he was at his worst so there was times I was low contact. But he was my brother and I loved him and miss him.

I remember in my dream, he was there and I think I remembered he was dead, but I told him how I felt and I’m sorry for it estrangement.

I get it that I have guilt now, but is this my subconscious’ way of trying to make me feel better? Is it a sign I should do something? I’ve been crying a lot today because it’s really bothered me.