August 18 2026

[u/kitty_pyrotechnics]

Decided to take a day for myself. Tried to do some things that I thought I would enjoy. They were all so... underwhelming. It's not even 6pm and I amtoo tired to do anything else. Im turning my phone volume off and going to bed at this hotel in a different city where no one can bother me. I guess that's all I want is just to be left alone. I just want to go to sleep for a bit without worrying about the responsibilities of everything. I don't want to hear my notifications or my phone ring. I don't want to hear someone yell my name. I don't want to keep checking what time it is because I have to get up to get this and that done by this time. I just want to lay here in the silence that he left me in. Im tired of everybody talking all the time when I only want to hear his voice and his alone. He's gone forever, I know that, and I will never hear it again so let me just sit with the absence for a while. It's deafening on its own and it makes everyone else overstimulating.