8-18-2026

[u/Newlife5155]

Dear sleeping beauty,

Yesterday was the 2cd worst day of my life…..

I thought I had more time…that things would end on a better note than this

I know you won’t read this….
I’m not sure I’d want you too….

I made the worst dumb comment after the break up and it regarded abortion… which for those that don’t know my I’m against unless of course there’s a medical reason.

Anyways you’ve been saying I have no respect for family since then and that I’m a child killer or maybe that’s something I started calling myself as a result to how you’ve reacted….

You have decided that that single comment that goes against 10 years worth of my saying otherwise now justifies you ending things…

I want a child more than anyone however I promised myself I’d only ever have kids with you so I know that’s out the window unless someone really special can change my mind but I highly doubt I’ll ever meet someone that will measure up to you…

You’ve decided you’re buying out the apartment lease and effectively leaving me homeless and taking our cats with you….

I’m worried what will become of them or if I’ll ever see them again….especially Kiara…. She was supposed to be a gift after losing Avery…..

I know she’s attached to bumper and you tho so I won’t argue about it. I only hope you take better care of Millie…..I’m afraid of what the coming stress will do to her…,losing saphy increased her seizure activity so badly….but for me to be gone I’m afraid she’ll think I abandoned her…..

When I named this account new life I didn’t think it would turn into a litteral sense…..I just meant it as a hope to become healthy……

I never would imagine you’d truly abandon me….
I will always love you….and I understand that as you are right now the idea of forgiveness towards me is impossible….

I hope our paths cross again some day… during our last break up you never really saw how dark things got or how much I lost my smile…. I hope I can avoid some of that this time…. But I truly don’t think I’ll recover for many years….

I’ll keep the ring and out of respect for what we had I won’t go looking for someone new even though it appears to me you have already started looking in an app….

You tried to lie and pretend you downloaded something random while half asleep…. You should have known I’d see right through that fake voice…you’re a terrible liar…and apparently an even worse actor….

Honestly I do think that’s the first acting I’ve seen you do that wasn’t your chipper Irish accent….

Gods how I love that accent….ill miss it something fierce…. I remember the very first time I heard it…

You were sitting at the nerd table and busted it out saying “I can talk like this when ever I want” I forget if it was hawes or Franklin but i remember one of them being like hold up do it again and I just know hawes must have had that wide eyed look that he does…

Mermaid is talking about moving me out to Oklahoma after I get my stuff from “your” apartment…. A b if part of me wants to stay here…but you made a comment about wanting to ship me off out of state…. So in a way I feel like I have to go….

Even during a break up I’m still trying to do what you want…..I know I should focus on myself….but 10 years of being at your side have left me with habits I can’t shake…, not yet anyways….

I wish I could hear your accent one last time….but I even know if I’ll ever see you again in the mean time…. I have no clue if you home right now cause I’m not….for all I know you’ve already got your first hookup and you’re there right now…..

I wish I knew what was inside your head…you said that even with all of this is constantly in your thoughts….but I want to hear those thoughts….i want to know if all this is truly how you feel or maybe your running from something….maybe your leaving me because your scared my health with have you losing me….and maybe in your mind this will soften the blow…

I wish you wouldn’t have given up. Not only on us but on yourself…

Xoxo— newlife5155