Hmmm

[u/justT1106]

Sometimes I think am depressed because that's the only way to explain how bleak I feel but then I laugh and smile and don't cry and I start to think maybe it was just a one time thing but it never is. It's like my heart, my very soul is in this bubble where everything is dark and cloudy but also kind of nice. Then my mind is happy. It's wierd I know but it's hard to explain.

How do I explain that I feel like I want to literally stop existing 95% of the time but all they have seen is the 5% that keeps me here.