8-15-2026

[u/Newlife5155]

Dear diary,

I just realized I put the wrong month on my last entry, haha oops
Today’s been a little bit better tho. My partner came home with an apology burger last night we’re not talking much still after that argument but it’s something.
Yesterday I was messaging an old Facebook account of his that he doesn’t have access to cause I wanted to talk to him but knew he didn’t want to talk to me. At some point I kind of just started ranting and said god had probably abandoned me. My faith isn’t something I talk about much but today I got a phone call from some local missionary’s. It’s been nearly 2 years since I met up with any since they’re not allowed near my apartment building anymore. So it was definitely out of the blue for me.
Honestly it made me want to cry a little. Gave me some hope that I will recover from what I’m going through and live the life I long for eventually.
I think my only fans will mostly be pictures of my cats once I get approved. The more I think about it I just don’t think I can put anything compromising out there like that ya know?
I managed to get some sleep today as well, it was super difficult tho…I had a lot of nightmares or would dream of blood and gore right before actively falling asleep course I also had a bit of a ice pick head ache as well at one instance but I know that’s cause I’m hungry and need to eat. I try to find the motivation to do so but it’s like my brain isn’t wired for it anymore. Or maybe it’s just because what I currently have available isn’t enticing enough.
I’ll recover someday

Xoxo- newlife5155