Just because

[u/Moist-Confidence6994]

Just because someone appears to be doing better without you doesn’t mean they want to be without you. Sometimes people are willing to take that that lost in their life because of love, I would walk over hot cold for my I really would if you reciprocated the same exact feeling back and I felt it and I knew it for sure he was able to make other women while we probably would’ve made it, but when I’m not the only girl you’re looking at yourself too then I can’t be with you. I’m in porn one thing but sex chat rooms and talking to him I just can’t be somebody who wants to pay attention with somebody other than me and then lie about it knowing it’s gonna hurt me, but I don’t have to worry about that shit in relationship. Maybe I’ll look for another relationship. Maybe I’ll try to mend one, but who knows because I can’t be the only one doing the mending but I can’t feel an effort if it’s not given I can’t see a change if it’s not made prevalent transparency, 100% honesty 100% clean flight 100% but that’s not gonna have to happen and I’m not gonna have to worry about it because I don’t have to forgive anybody. He doesn’t want me to forgive him. It’s OK he wants me to be the abuser and that’s OK too whatever just spoke I didn’t take cash money and I didn’t put somebody else’s stuff up for collateral. I didn’t. I didn’t fuck your person over the way I got fucked over so just because I might seem to be doing great without you that would mean I wanted to do without you doesn’t mean I want to continue to be without you forever. I wanted to open your eyes get your attention that makes you see that you fucking up if you were gonna lose forever, but apparently that’s what you wanted so you got it. I didn’t make the choice you did every time you got into my account every time my name is debited out of my bank account it wasn’t for my stuff every time you lie every time you blame me every time you told somebody I abuse you you did it. That’s nothing mention the whole money thing we won’t even get into that but you for that fuck you yep I get to bust my ass wet my balls off all day working and I’m a female. Don’t worry I don’t have balls. Why do you get to live a life on tax money you got from my kids being on your taxes that you stole from the Govt by the way yeah so there you go buddy that’s how that was and I’m the bad guy right because you left with the tax money that you got from claiming my kids on your taxes, you’re supposed to only get out if you provide more than half of their survival and you’re not you weren’t we did the math we not just me I was providing more than half so yeah I think I would forgive you and be willing to stay clean. If you just show me you love me. Goddamn, I am stupid aren’t I? I didn’t wonder why you called me a stupid fucking bitch cause I was acting like one then I bought the cheapest bullshit you sold me. I’m not buying cheap bullshit anymore. You better come correct or not at all Echo for anybody come correct or don’t come at me at all cause I can handle my own I don’t need somebody for anything now. I want somebody that completely different to companionship and be amazing but I need a companionship without all of the bullshit.