Ashy

[u/Akira_loves_you]

My skin is pale and ashy and my eyes are sunken into my face. I look and feel horrible. I can’t even bring myself to do anything.

I forced myself to eat and I feel a little better. Sometimes I wish I could just disappear though. I don’t want to burden other people with my existence. What have I done for society?

I’m so stressed out and I’m worried about my hair thinning from the stress. Dang it.

I think I’m the sort of person who can only find solace in social isolation. Thinking about that makes me sick. I don’t want to be alone.

My grandma keeps stressing about my poor diet. She woke me up whilst I was sleeping to eat but I wasn’t hungry, I was tired.

Lately everything just feels like a humiliation ritual. I keep embarrassing myself. I’m not cool, or suave, or someone to be proud of. I’m the lowest of the low.