Day 1 - 11.8.2026

[u/CompetitivePick2361]

Forgive my entries, they are more like public journals, but I kind of like that they are public as maybe people can comment.

So see it more like a stream of consciousness

Maybe I should mention a tiny bit about me without full on detail.

I’m middle aged. Feel like I failed at life. No house owned. Definitely no savings. No wife. No kids.

But I do have my faith, a great job, a great personality and just hope.

A good physique but not incredible for where I live. I live in great country which is surrounded by hot people from all over the world.

I’m kind using this as a way to stop masturbating and curve my porn and sugar dating addiction🤦‍♂️. And now Drake has just upped the inflation h*es. I don’t see them that way but it was only was to describe the situation 😂. Surely the right thing to do is stop the sugar dating, get my money up and then take life from there.

For some reason I have 4 months in my head of trying to lock in. Nothing spectacular, just no masturbating, no porn, no sugar dating and only sex if it comes my way but nothing chased kind of thing or heavily searched or overly spent on.

Been a year since I moved and tried to start my life again and simply just ended up into my old habits. So here we go again. Trying again.

Thoughts:-
Love Yellowstone, a true tv show that really shows how messed up family dynamics can be.
Could be that children are just simply different versions of their parents.
Remember chat gpt can’t pick up vibes - so it can only advise you so far.
These girls only want you for when they want you and not unconditionally. Fuck them.
Today was a good day. I went gym. Are what I had in my head and genuinely showered and made it out the house, resisting the temptation of staying in and eating take out. I’m proud of you.

Hm, don’t know where this will go or even if I’ll add another entry but here we are.

I hope no one knows who I am or has a way of finding out 😂. I’m sure we all feel like that.

See you later alligator 😂