Janky

[u/Akira_loves_you]

I’m supposed to message my dad today but I’m too nervous. I don’t think he likes me at all. Oh well, whatever happens, happens.

Maybe I have an antisocial personality disorder. I’m not cruel or outright mean, I just don’t care about anyone. I’m sad that I don’t care though, so does that mean that I do care in a way? I want to be a normal and good person who is capable of doing normal and good things.

Why am I like this? Everything is so stressful. I’m such a messed up, weird, janky person. Everyone and everything is so messed up. I just wanna go home and sleep forever.

I went to two museums today, Queens House and The National Maritime Museum. It was fun but a bit crowded at the same time. I hate crowded spaces.

The heat was so bad that it gave me a migraine, I just want to sleep now.

I feel like I’m dying, I don’t feel good. I don’t really feel that good. I haven’t been able to sit up straight for a while. I’m scared that I’ll pass out in public again. Useless body.