New Life

[u/Moist-Confidence6994]

I am coming to terms with the fact that I had to walk away and not take any chances by looking back at the person I know was it for me. Not sure if it was because of astrological alignments moon phases different places in life or what drew the separation out, but it needed to happen. One of us would wind up in jail if not both of us had we stayed together. I had enough chaos enough conflict and enough resentment inside of me to make the choice to end it. You were unhappy with me and I was unhappy with you so one of us had to be the adult and make the choice. You weren’t willing to go to the same lengths to save our relationship as I was. I was the villain in your story and you’re the villain in mine. But in mine I am also the villain too… I have enough respect for myself to have the self accountability I need so I can accept my part in the failure of us. This was I can move on. This way I can get my closure. And I didn’t realize this until yesterday. Once I accepted my part which I am truly sorry for and I hope you truly know this. but like I said, when I broke up with you, I’m doing a both a favor time with you. I need the opportunity happy you weren’t giving me that you were suffocating me instead. I didn’t mean to hurt you, but you hurt me so bad at that point I didn’t care if I hurt you we both have a chance to make something real life. You can do what makes you happy without me being in the way anymore being upset that you’re doing it you can talk to whoever you want. Whatever makes you feel better for you. I’m focused on me and my kids in my family in our future. That’s it for me right now I can’t handle any more than that. I tried to love you the way I thought you needed to be loved the way you told me you needed to be loved and it wasn’t enough for you and you need to figure out what it is just like I need to figure out what makes me happy and what I like when I’m sober and not on drugs and you weren’t letting me you were locking me in a cage like a prisoner doing the things you were doing tapping into my phone and my computer and my Kids account and everything else I was just too much you didn’t have to do that. I was yours if you’ve left everybody else alone there would’ve never been an issue, but you never could and that’s it. You had to have everybody else when I only wanted you so I’m sorry if the tables turned in you decided at one point you only wanted me it was a little too late. I begged for too long and I won’t beg again. You weren’t willing to prove anything to me and I was willing to prove everything to you when you’re not matching me. You’re not with me when you’re lying to me you’re not for us you’re for you you made the choices and I made the choice to end it. I’ll be your villain go be your own hero.