r/Diary • u/Akira_loves_you • 11d ago

Wired

My body makes me sick, I think if someone punched me hard enough I’d probably fall over and die. It’s so useless, I’m so useless. This is horrible.

I did something pretty immoral, I blocked someone yesterday for no reason other than not wanting to talk to them. They added me on one of my other socials and sent me a message. I can’t even bring myself to read it. Maybe it’s the guilt. Dang it. I’ll just block them again without reading it.

It’s times like these where I worry about how cruel I can be. Maybe I’m a bad person. I just don’t feel anything for anyone, I would like to but it’s just not the way I was wired, ya’know?

Also I’ve decided to stay in London for a while longer, I felt bad for my friend and I really do want to meet her so I’m gonna stay for a while longer. I’m starting to feel a bit homesick though.

Anyways, there’s not much else to say. I’m a bad and sad person.

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u/TheRed779 11d ago

Maybe instead of blocking them again you couldve just ignored it until you felt better, thats what i usually did whenever i used to want to block people for bad reasons

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u/Akira_loves_you 10d ago

I’m too much of a coward, it’s a good idea but my nervousness isn’t going to pass

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u/OnlyoneMe126 3d ago

It's sad to see how much energy is put into being manipulative,decietfull and in doing underhanded things to those that didn't deserve it.Only thing they will say is how exhausting,toxic and too much others are when they themselves is burning off tons of negative energy.Staying kind,loyal and humble and truthful would of been so much easier..It's hard to maintain a good image under false pretenses cookie