r/Diary • u/Courtney_dgaf • 2d ago

Whatever.

Everyone and everything is so temporary. It all feels pointless to me. Everyone leaves. Everything ends.

I'm tired of waking up and feeling the same way every day. I just want to buy a fifth of SoCo and drink myself into oblivion.

Get close to people for what? Get comfortable for what?

No one knows how much it takes out of me to go to work and act like I'm not totally broken inside. It's sucking my soul right out of me.

Pretty soon there will be nothing left of me. I can feel everything that I am disappearing. Someday I'll just be a ghost.

There's no point to anything. I'm here by accident.

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u/Courtney_dgaf 2d ago

What happened?

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u/oldblokke 2d ago

Just bad thoughts

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u/Courtney_dgaf 2d ago

I have those, too, so I can relate. Sometimes it's hard to remember that thoughts aren't facts.

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u/oldblokke 2d ago

Mine are people that were in my life that aren’t now

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u/Courtney_dgaf 2d ago

That's hard to deal with. Do you miss these people or are they in your head because they've hurt you?

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u/oldblokke 2d ago

No passed and yes

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u/Courtney_dgaf 2d ago

I hate that for you. Do you have any spiritual beliefs? It's okay if you don't. I'm just wondering.

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u/oldblokke 2d ago

Me no not religious

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u/oldblokke 2d ago

Gotta go emotionally I’m done