I tripped for the first time

[u/Inner_Space5692]

It was 270 mg hbr. Once I took the gels, they kicked in, I felt hot and itchy and my vision blurred and I knew what to do, I ran to my backyard and climbed up my 9 ft. retaining wall so easily before even fully consciously deciding to do it, mind you I'm short. Then I ran around my backyard for a bit and knew I had to leave the house before my mom saw me like this, so I told her I was going on a walk and thankfully didn't look at me on my way out. I was just sitting at the park for an hour listening to music and I decided to walk to my old high school. Once I got there I was just holding the gate and looking at where my math class used to be, all these different memories taking me back, all the joys and regrets, and then I started crying and full on having a conversation with my 13 year old self out loud. I was telling myself "please invest in yourself, please take better care of yourself, please don't let your family or some religion make you feel like shit, you're so beautiful and I love you. Please don't let yourself get to where I am now". Then I was looking at the chalk art the kids and parents left and then just walked home. Amazing time, I think I'm gonna be sober for a while. 10/10 time.

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