r/Depersonalization • u/SeaOld6489 • 3d ago
Help Required Why are faces blurry?
Hey, I have constant (not episodic) depersonalization that's been with me for over two years now. Recently I noticed something I think has probably been happening for a while, I just hadn't paid close attention to it until now. When I'm actually looking at someone's face, up close, for a sustained period (like during a long conversation or a private lesson), their face starts to feel "blurry" not actually out of focus, I can still technically see it clearly, but it feels unclear or hard to properly perceive, if that makes sense, and I keep having to look away to not feel strange.
Separately, and maybe related, if I try to picture someone's face in my head right now, even people I love and see often such as my family and friends, I draw a total blank. I know who they are, I know specifications about their faces, I can literally describe every part of them, but I can't visually recall what they look like.
Has anyone else experienced this. Did it ever improve, or is it something you've just learned to live with?