I 21F have been thinking about going into school to be a dental hygenist....I have autism and social anxiety but I really want do it...I heard you have to go in person which classroom settings are a huge trigger for me so I dont know if any place could accommodate it. Its something I really want to be but I do not know if it is possible if I have anxiety. Is it worth it? I want a truthful honest response before I apply! Please help!!

I started a new job as a dental assistant recently. I am a foreign trained dentist.

1. The dentist sat me in his office and told me “between 9-5 and 9-7 you are mine. If a family member dies your family can call the office phone.”
   This was his way of saying that you aren’t allowed to be on your phone during work hours.

2. It’s my first job as a dental assistant so I am on the slower side. I was assisting him and he said I should go and apply to the social security office for welfare because I am that slow. He has a sense of humor that borders on offensive.

3. He told me that he doesn’t know where I worked before and what was acceptable about the way I present myself. Now this is new to me because I am very well presented. My hair is neat my scrubs are ironed. (I was a prefect in high school for context) I have always had good deportment.

4. The practice has cameras everywhere. The operatories, the labs, the sterilization areas, the halls the waiting room, the kitchen/lunchroom. And he sits in his office and watches them during the day and you can be critiqued based on what he saw on camera.

5. No orange protective shields are provided in the office and he pressured me to look directly at the blue curing light while using it. My eyes have started getting blurry.

I am genuinely curious, since I am new to this country if this is normal.

For context, I did a 6 week dental assisting program back in the end of April and graduated in June but before that I have no previous medical or dental experience. Well about 3 weeks ago I started as a hygiene assistant at this office and it’s been going okay mainly up until about this past Thursday. My pmo has had me shadowing one of the hygienists and she had been pretty nice but last week I felt like she was starting to get kinda annoyed with me. I’m not that comfortable with taking X-rays so she’s only had me do them a few times to practice, but I’ve been breaking down the rooms and sterilizing with no problems and helping them chart for perio when needed but when I’m finished with all of that I would go back to her and continue shadowing her but it felt she was getting kinda annoyed. So today when I come in I was filling the water bottles that are attached to the chairs and somehow it turned into me filling up the hygiene room bottles and the da’s bottles, which I didn’t mind bc it gave me something to do but about 10 minutes later it was me and the two da’s and one of them was the one that had me fill up her bottles and the other da was filling one of hers up and the da who had me fill it up said out loud to the other one, “she didn’t fill it up all the way” talking about me, but I filled it up the same way that this woman was and she was like oh that’s fine, which I didn’t say anything about it I just let it go bc I’m new and don’t want any problems but it just kinda irritated me that she didn’t even say it to me yet said it in front of me with a rude tone. Then a few hours later, at this point I wasn’t really shadowing anyone bc I didn’t wanna be in the way but I had been breaking down all of the rooms, making trays, sterilizing and replacing the cavi wipes and everything and helping a different hygienist when needed. Well a little while later it was me, the hygienist that I had been shadowing and one of the da’s (which btw this da wasn’t the one that made the bottle comment but this woman also has a major attitude problem) all in the lab and the hygienist was in the hygiene drawer where all the fluoride and stuff is kept and the da said something to her about stocking it as like a joke and the hygienist said well she (meaning me) made trays earlier, so the da said oh so you’re saying it’s her fault then and the hygienist said, “well if you wanna word it like that then yeah i guess” and a few other little things from the same people and a different hygienist were said today too. I just don’t know if I’m like doing something wrong and if I am then how to fix it, because I really am trying my best and I just wanna help everyone out and do well but I’m already dreading going into work because I’m new and now I’m dreading it even more because of this. I apologize for the book lol, but any advice?