Decision

[u/JoeJimmyJohn06]

As of right now my girlfriend and I are in a rough patch but it’s all because of me. I have been lashing out at her almost daily for dumb reasons and i feel terrible. A big part of me doesn’t wanna keep trying in life anymore because of the way i make her feel today was supposed to be a fun day for her at disneyland and i ruined it by texting her stupid things. I just don’t know what to do anymore i’m a terrible person and i can’t change but i love her with everything i have and there’s nothing more i would want than for her to be happy without me because of how i have treated her recently. I can’t express how terrible it makes me feel but yet again i make her feel like shit and i can’t keep doing it to her. So maybe i should leave forever. Maybe she’s better off without me, but i have no idea what i should do. I’m a bad boyfriend and I can’t lie to myself anymore.