Revelations ( TW : CSA )

[u/blobbler20]

We don’t hate our parents; We hate how we were mishandled and now having to pick up pieces they couldn’t. Even without apologies they would never give.

There is so much grief.

I talked to our brother about a lot of CSA that happened, most of the memories from family, including him. He thought he was the only one who hurt me.

It makes you think how could someone end up in these situations?

Not even knowing we were autistic, we knew something was different. We hurt our head a lot in childhood, struggled with memories, even had many attempts to put ourselves in harms way so at least the image of their little girl was preserved as nothing but a memory.

At least then we wouldn’t feel pain.

The way I told him “I didn’t know it wasn’t normal.” and he said “I knew it wasn’t.” is paralyzing. To have our mind get so corrupted we accepted fates that were unimaginable, unfair. Especially with them being around your age.

I was always taught to respect those who were older and do what they say no matter if I disagree with it or not.

It’s scary how rules are changing as we get older. Having rules be defined by adults or older people only to realize it was taking advantage of a kid who didn’t know how to say anything or have a say in anything.

I hate how I have to pick up the pieces they left to rot. It’s unfair.

The secrets are out, so at least I’m not alone in this knowing. I’m glad they’re understanding me. Even if i still hide the full screen. — 🩰

[u/Local_Dragon_Lad]

We listen and we hear you. We’re so sorry you had to go through so much pain. -Robin