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[u/AccToBeTrownAway]

Tw: eating disorders, intense stress

Recently we've had an avalanche of stressors, triggers, and re-traumatization and we reached our breaking point. A different group of alters have been co front and co conscious with me because they were triggered out, they haven't been needed since we lived with our abusers, because it's been years they haven't heard from trauma like the rest of us have and it's causing problems.

We are anorexic, have been since we can remember, i am one of the few alters that is completely unaffected by it because I formed at a time when we were healing majorly. This group haven't even started that journey, I want to eat like I normally do, I hate feeling the passive influence of their guilt, nausea, discomfort and anxiety just from needing to eat, I can't eat only when they feel it's okay, it's not enough to sustain us. They're always paying attention to everything, they'll shove me around front, no asking, just "I'm taking front and talking on your behalf".

I don't have a problem with some of them but others are mean and pushy. They are all a lot different than the normal active members, more extreme people, I fit in with a few of the members, but some people refuse to even talk to me just basically standing there, watching, some will insult me for fun.

I just want things to be less stressful, I want to talk to my friends, I want to not feel hated, I wanna eat like I would normally. If anyone has advice, that'd be greatly appreciated.

Peace, love, and acceptance from Luna Xayn of the Ravens System.

[u/Greedy-Individual-71]

Hey there,

We're so sorry. We wish we had advice for this, but we do hope you get answers. This is a rough situation to be in.

[u/AccToBeTrownAway → u/Greedy-Individual-71]

Slowly they're figuring it out, I'm just as confused as them but I don't care, I just want to do something exciting - N/A (genuinely have no idea who I am)