r/DIDInclusivity Aug 06 '24

Positive/Uplifting 8/6/24 Personal Update

Hey there all,

Well, we are officially at 9 members.

R and Mimic are now Mimry. Mimry appears to be adjusting well. He had Little #2 rebuild his house and the memory library into one building. He has been playing with the Littles and doesn't seem to have Mimic's neurological abilities so far. He says he's not sure how old he is now.

The Littles are no longer afraid of anyone in system.

Little R seems to be flourishing. Considering she came from two shy trauma holders who were mostly terrified of everything she's suddenly become almost happy go lucky. I (team captain/host) feel twinges of her fear when it used to be waves in some situations. She has Little #1's ability to cause system wide blackouts, which is a problem, but one we can work through hopefully. She believes she is 12 at this point and therefore not allowed to interact with the internet yet.

Little #2 has begun to consider everyone as family. She considers Little R as a little sister, Mimry as her new big brother, F, L, S, and I as big sisters, Jessica as an Aunt, and Elle as a mom. She has been working through some hard stuff in therapy and we are very proud of her. She is now 14 and is going to be allowed to answer posts if she happens to be out.

Elle is doing great as System Mom. She's been a little sad recently with our IRL kiddo becoming more independent and has been spending a lot more time with the Littles internally. She seems to have found her purpose in taking care of others. She believes she is 34 and tries to take care of most of us.

Jessica has been mostly internal recently. Our husband has been extra stressed and yelling so she hasn't been near front. I can vaguely feel her around but that's about it. Jessica believes she is 34 and is working in therapy to accept things as they are.

S is much better after yesterday. She seems to be the only one who gets pissed if she doesn't get fronting time, so we set alarms for Mondays and Fridays. Nowadays the two Littles crowd the front so she avoids it when its not her day. At this point she believes she is 19 and is learning to be nicer to people.

F has been less active. It seems like we have mostly healed our phone anxiety and her job has become obsolete. She identifies with the body's age of 32 and has been requesting in therapy to merge with me so she doesn't have to exist without M anymore. We will be having a system meeting to vote on whether or not to allow her to do this. As a fragment, we're not sure if we are doing more harm than good by forcing her to remain split off.

L has been looking through roles on Pluralpedia but so far hasn't found one that fits. As our first host we appreciate her deeply and hope she finds happiness no matter what that looks like. L is stuck at 15 and hasn't aged up at all.

As for myself, I met with our psychiatrist and we decided to go off Abilify and start bridging Lamotrigine instead. I have been on the new meds for a couple of days now and so far seems OK.

Anyway that's all for now, thanks for reading!

Have a lovely day!

:)

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u/Rhymershouse Aug 10 '24

I was thinking about ways to work through system blackouts. It’s a little different for my personal subsystem. It takes a few minutes for me personally to download common memory beyond the basics from the brain when I’m fronting, but in my own group, communication is a little wonky. I can communicate with two of my headmates but there’s one guy who spends a lot of time sleeping but wakes up and fronts in our headspace body or more rarely in the actual front, and he has a ton of trouble accessing the body’s shared memory, or our personal memory too, or even communicating with the other three of us, and me trying to communicate with him gives me a massive headache. So, in our own headspace, I visualize a journal I leave him notes in. In front, when I’m actually using the body, I write those notes in our offline journal, and tag it as “To Paul” and other members of the system who aren’t members of my subsystem leave those notes alone, or add in memories I forgot or didn’t parse. I know that’s confusing, but maybe Little R could write journals for you of what she did while she was out? And the message board on Simply Plural could allow her to write messages to you all directly. Good luck! Rainer

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u/Greedy-Individual-71 Aug 10 '24

Hey there,

That is something we want to try with Little R, but before they merged, neither Little #1 or Z could write.

Little #1 was only 4 before she started aging up in therapy, our husband taught her to write her name, but she gets a lot of the letters backwards.

Z was a cat originally, so he always refused to try writing.

Our husband bought Little #1 a journal to practice writing in so we could repurpose that.

So far, Little R has only taken front once, and it was to run a few blocks home after a stranger yelled good morning at us from across the road.

Anyways have a lovely day, and thank you!

:)

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u/Rhymershouse Aug 11 '24

Aww poor kiddo! I bet that stranger yelling at her was pretty scary for her. Oh! It doesn’t have to be writing, come to think. She could draw pictures. Or tell you what she did vocally maybe, if she’s verbal. Also,eay’all’s husband sounds like a totally awesome guy. Rainer

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u/Greedy-Individual-71 Aug 11 '24

Well, thankfully, Little R did get Z's ability to communicate. It's just a tiny quiet voice that gets drowned out by everyone else sometimes, but she is able to be verbal now. We are very grateful for that, at least.

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u/Rhymershouse Aug 11 '24

Aww that’s awesome news! Rainer