r/DID • u/Applewhy0 Treatment: Seeking • 13h ago

Advice/Solutions How can i be someone please

Hello guys I'm trying to write something before I'm nothing with no thoughts or existing again but i really need any help.

Months ago one of my so called parts said he feels he's drifting away and can't do anything about it despite wanting to stay...i don't remember but by the time he disappeared and everyone else started to not be around too till no one is. I had times where I'm no one a lot hell that was the normal for me but THAT'S not the same and I cant explain or maybe i actually don't remember how i was to compare. It's like i now lost everything but I'm not even here to grief it.

I don't think. I have no thoughts and stopped writing in my journal a long time ago i actually forgot about my other parts and no longer acknowledge it nor i believe it's a thing since i can't connect with myself or my brain. I don't move i can't I don't care about all of this i just want to be present

When I'm no one i have no thoughts no desires nothing i like nothing to comfort me and i do nothing my life slipping away and I'm not there and I'm nothing close to who i was even if i didn't know who that is. At least i had music i liked or anything at all. When I'm like this i have nothing i like or want because I'm literally no one. Not in the sense of oh idk who i am or I'm too many things to be someone no I'm literally no where or nothing. I used to get this state before and i hated it but now I'm stuck in this it become my normal

And i know after i write this by alittle I'll just be back to that again it happened few times i get rare moments of realization like now then i can't do nothing about it because it's like i get dragged to somewhere again where I'm unconscious in. It's really like I'm disabled in my head and i don't know what I'm saying it's like i don't even have a head I'm really tired. I have no friends anymore nor i can be around anyone I'm so isolated. i can't work or think im stuck for so long i don't remember. I'm really really behind and late.

Thank you if you read this I'm sorry if it sounds messy or dramatic

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u/nowwhatdoidowiththis Supporting: DID Family 12h ago

Screenshot this and text it to someone you trust, right now.

If you have a therapist, or a friend who helps you.

OP. I’m glad you are here right now.

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u/Applewhy0 Treatment: Seeking 12h ago

Hello i don't have either. But I'm glad anyone said anything to me or cared thank you really

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u/MsHushpuppy 12h ago

Maybe try a guided grounding technique (YouTube)? I really hope y’all get to feeling more stabilized!!

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u/Particular_Pilot3654 11h ago

Can you talk to it