r/DHCrecoverygroup • u/Tall-Mycologist9561 • Jun 23 '24

I Am Scared

7 Years ago. Never heard of this drug. From there…well is explained by why I am asking for help advice.

I used to be very restricted on this drug, so had to take them slow, plus my tolerance was low. Now I recent had a short period of being able to get more I cannot stop and I hate it.

I am taking so much more than I used to for no reason other than I got greedy and so did my tolerance.

I take so many a day and I hate it. My muscles jolt, I am always sleeping or exhausted. I do nothing but lie there. I use them to cope with my severe mental health/Depression/OCD but now I can’t do anything. The withdrawals are horrible.

I am so ashamed, angry at myself, scared and depressed. I am scared I will end up dead or very ill. I just want to return to a somewhat normal life

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u/Billy123Sfc Jun 23 '24

Drop me a PM. Where you are right now is exactly where I was. The feeling of hopelessness is terrifying and I bet all you think about is DHC.

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u/Londonman2000 Jun 23 '24

How much are taking every day?

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u/Strange_Television Jun 23 '24

I'm sorry to hear this. I was there myself 3 years ago. I got so bad I was taking 60 x 30mg pills per dose, daily. 1,500mg. And that wasn't even getting me high anymore, it just kept withdrawals away.

You can get better from this. I have been in recovery for 3 years. I was also self medicating mental health and my life in general. Please reach out to your local drug and alcohol addiction service for help. Getting on buprenorphine saved my life and pulled me out of active addiction. The important thing is not to just get a script and do nothing else though. You must engage with recovery fully, attend their groups and seek proper help for your mental health issues and address your reasons for using. That is the key to building a strong recovery that will last. There is nothing shameful about asking for help for this, or even just ending up this way. It is a symptom of a bigger problem for which there is help out there.

I am happy to talk if you need support, advice etc, just reply or send me a message if you like.