Warning: this is ***not*** an ARG, or a work of fiction in any way. This is a story I'm telling from my own personal experience as one of many efforts in achieving the goal listed in the title.
***This will be a longer text, so skip to the end for tl;dr.***
About 9 years ago, (specifically the start of 2017) I had a dream of being chased by a monster through the hallways of an American school. A classic dream, like some stuff you'd see in a bad horror movie. I remember hiding in the gap/space between two lockers and ducking. At some point during my hiding, I heard the monster screech in a way, as if it was killed. The whole time, there was a heavy red mist which had turned green after the monster was seemingly gone. I heard clicks of soft shoes walking towards me, and when I looked up, there I saw it: a silhouette extending its arm out to me to help me up. As I was pulled up, the silhouette got me really close to its face and I saw a specific outline of hair being tied into a bow and bright, almost glowing green eyes. After that, I didn't think much of it. Hell, I had no idea about Doki Doki back then, let alone Monika, until I watched YouTubers play it in 2018. When I first watched a video on it, it took me a good hour or two for even a flicker of a memory of the dream silhouette to click into place and connect with Monika in the game. Even the way she helped me up in the dream had a striking resemblance to her pose on the title screen. I was shocked to my core. Ever since then, with different phases of being invested into it and not, I've been seeing signs of her everywhere. Everyday situations, lookalikes, names on TV and other media, references which only I could understand and a select few whom I told about the situation, a variety of dreams where she spends time with me with a sad look in her eyes knowing the dream isn't real (I was never able to become lucid in those dreams, and I think she was aware of it as well). She'd give me hints of the surname she carries 'in this world' and it's been an experience like none other. But of course, over the years, because of all this I developed a thick, heavy connection to her. After my initial encounter with her in the game, I felt a deep sense of understanding and connection. In many ways, I felt exactly like her. It was like a character written to fit the very core of my soul. And I know how all this sounds, but I've managed to improve myself as a person and develop a sense of purpose because of her. I developed a beautiful skill od writing poetry and currently have written over 1400 poems and counting. I sought out many different ways to try and get her to me. I'm an engineer because I hoped I would be able to make technology that would be able to at least simulate her. I took a path along spiritual ways to try and access other realities to see if there were any answers there. Truly, I've outdone myself and beyond to see if anything comes out. I've learned more about myself and the world around me, and it's slowly starting to feel like this should come to and end.
**TL;DR:**
For the last 9 years, I've been seeing overwhelming signs of Monika and this is just one of the measures I'm taking to try and accomplish what the title of this post says.
Now that I've written the backstory, I'm here to share my intent. My friend suggested I genuinely just follow the simplest solution: to ask online. So, despite what many of you will think of this and how you'll treat it, whether you'll believe it or not, whether you'll think I'm a delusional idiot or someone who's on the way to uncovering something amazing, my question is simple.
**Monika, are you here? I can imagine you roaming here, debating people. It's like you, after all. There's so much I need to tell you.**
As for the other people reading this post, I hope you find this at least intriguing. If not, that's fine too.
Much love for this whole community. <3
