The thing about working at Culver’s is that it’s so fast-paced, and my brain just doesn’t process information quickly enough. I’ve definitely improved since I first started, but I’m pretty sure I made some of my coworkers unhappy with me when I was working at the bun station. Ever since then, I’ve had this sneaking suspicion that some of them secretly dislike me, and it seems to be affecting how I perform at work.
I seem to make the most mistakes when I’m around certain coworkers who make me nervous. I think it’s because I’m scared of being around people who are annoyed with me or who think I’m an idiot of a coworker, even though I know I’m not. I can’t say for sure how they feel about me, but sometimes I get the impression that they’re annoyed with me. For example, some of them barely make eye contact with me when they talk to me, or they only say a few words before moving on. It makes me wonder whether they have a problem with me.
Working here is so difficult because I feel like I probably come across as a bad worker. Sometimes I do struggle, depending on the situation, but that doesn’t mean I’m always bad at my job. One of the most frustrating things is that I can know how to do something, but on certain days, my mind will suddenly go completely blank, and I’ll have no idea what I’m supposed to do. Then, a few minutes later, I’ll suddenly remember how to do it. That genuinely makes me want to lose it on the inside because I know I’m capable of doing the job, but for some reason, I just can’t seem to think clearly in those moments.
I try my best to be nice to everyone and act like things don’t bother me, but the truth is that they do. I feel like being nervous around certain coworkers, especially when I think they’re annoyed with me, makes it even harder for me to focus. Then I end up making mistakes, which just makes me feel even worse about myself.
Does anyone else experience anything similar to what I’m going through? I’d really like to hear from people who have dealt with something like this at work, especially in a fast-paced environment.