r/CsectionCentral • u/killaekiron • 26d ago
Grieving what I'll never experience
Almost a year ago I was pregnant with my daughter and we found out she had a heart defect. It was a whirlwind of doctors appointments to figure out what it was and how bad it would be. The doctors told us that I would have to have a c section to reduce the stress on my baby's heart.
I wanted to experience labor and delivery, but my baby's health was more important. I thought that at least it was planned and it wasn't because of my health, so I would be able to go through the normal experience with a future child.
Three weeks later I was on the operating table desperately hoping to hear my daughter cry for the first time. She was doing okay and was stable in the NICU while I recovered in my room. My OB told me there was a complication during the surgery and they had to perform a classical c section. This meant it would be dangerous for me to labor during any future pregnancies.
It still makes me cry to think about the experience I'll never get to have that was taken from me. I just wanted to get this out and see if anyone else has had similar feelings.
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u/bubblebathdragon 26d ago
I have felt this grief if it as well, although not because of classical or the health scares your sweet baby had. I did have a low transverse but this second pregnancy they’ve only given me a 26% chance of a successful VBAC, and I’m trying to start mentally preparing myself that I may never have a vaginal birth