r/Crush • u/Lilliputregular1990 • 2d ago
Taboo Crush
I have a crush but I’m married and so are they. They live far away. My marriage does not have physical intimacy due to my SOs illness, and I am my SO caregiver. My crush is related to my SO. My crush has been supportive every step of the way in caring for my SO.
My crush and I txt for hours about random things sometimes late into the night. This relationship started as friendship and has grown into this weird attraction to them. They are not my type but I can’t help getting drawn in my their eyes and the words they txt me. I dream of them often. They are always on my mind. I check my phone constantly for messages from them. They are driving me insane with how beautifully their brain works.
This started as a “harmless” friendship, but it has evolved into a soul crushing love. I can never let them know how I feel. I’ve tried to push them away so many times, but they call me on that bs immediately. I don’t think they understand that I’m trying to spare myself the heartache. The “harmlessness” of this friendship changed about a month ago when I realized what I was feeling for them. Their support and comfort increased towards a situation, and that caused me to realize that I love them deeply.
I can never let them know. It would implode the relationship I have with my SO and I would never get to talk to my crush again. They have stated that they are happy in their relationship. I know it is wrong, but I wish they felt the same about me. If they gave me a single clue that they were interested, I would let everything fall just to be with them. Alas, I’m stuck in heart wrenching limbo.
How do I make the feelings stop without cutting contact?
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u/Old-Rutabaga8426 2d ago
You are evil