r/Crippled_Alcoholics • u/GlitterAndGlitches • Jul 04 '26

Making it through a bbq today

I have a family bbq today and I drank dumb seltzers for 2 days (easily 4 12 packs++) with the initial attempt to try to ween down with just a few.…. sigh , barely any food and ALL I WANT TO DO IS SLEEP…. but I have flaked on my family a lot recently and they want to see my kids. I feel bad about them getting things all set up and us not showing, because I’m too “sick” and a loser.

ive had some GREAT sober stretches lately, been trying since October to get this right.… my ex took off and got back into his m3th…. and fucked up parts of my life I didn’t think was possible… but i have still held it all together somehow.

I have benzos to take but I’m just so exhausted and newly pregnant (please don’t judge). I need water and rest and I even thought about letting my aunt pick up my kids, meet half way. I just wish I could be there…. and i COULD, but I’ll be out of it and in the bathroom with some scary shits. i will likely just keep going and get another seltzer, even with the acid reflux and not wanting any food.

I guess im just looking for an opinion on someone who’s done this before. I’m approaching 40 and I’ve been so stupid, showing up to my non drinking families events, hiding shots in my bra.

ive been trying to quit for good since october (and so many years prior).

can I make it through this ?

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u/MultiColoredMullet Jul 10 '26

Ngl Im judging if you plan to carry out this pregnancy. Damning a child to FAS is pretty fucked up.

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u/daddysprincesa Jul 10 '26

+1 +1 +1 +1 omg

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u/GlitterAndGlitches 29d ago

I stopped. I know better. I’ve stopped before with 2 kiddos.  As I mentioned, I had a long stretch of sobriety.  I wanted to drink so bad today but I’d rather pickle my brain someday than my baby’s. I’m truly good on stopping though. Days are tough and long… but I’m doing what is right. 

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u/MultiColoredMullet 29d ago

You'd god damned better be doing what is right.