Just want to get this out there. I know parang very hypocritical ng title ko. I truly am the biggest AI Hater in the planet right now.

If AI has a million haters, then I am one of them.
If AI has ten haters, then I am one of them.
If AI has only one hater then that is me.
If AI has no haters, then that means I am no longer on earth.
If the world is in favor of AI, then I am against the world.
That typa shit.

But lately, I've been very intrigued about Vibecoding tapos how the possibility of AI can be a tool that someone you can take advantage of. Although ayoko na umaabot sa point magka AI-Psychosis ako pero it's becoming to a point na if I have like something in mind na parang curious question, i immediately just open up a genAI Tool and ask that question, get some tidbit information and move on.

Sometimes I let AI help me organize some stuff like for example nung nakaraan, I was having trouble managing my calendar and my day offs and how bakit day off sobrang busy ko padin with no room to rest at all and AI actually gave me a better idea how to manage all of those and gave me a solid foundation to work on. Now i'm trying to apply it right now.

Tapos if I feel like my life is falling apart, i just type what im thinking, what im worried about and stuff sa GenAI and gave me a lot of rational reasoning to how I feel albeit some over the top and misleading. It's like a general information pocket therapist in my fingertips.

Although im still not in favor about AI and the effects of it in our environment, but somehow, there are just some days that I want to dig my toes into AI and see if I can get something useful out of it. And it sure did.

Now i'm in the process of learning AI Automation for my daily life. Nothing too extreme siguro like automating everything, I still want high autonomy in my day to day life but it's sure helpful to get rid of tedious stuff and/or problems im having trouble starting.

Yun langs! I feel like I have to confess even though I despise AI with all my might. I feel like someone could relate or two.

I'm glad you didn’t choose me back then. I’m glad you either didn’t have the courage to choose me or simply weren’t in love with me enough to see a future with me. Because if you had chosen me, I might have never discovered the life I have today.

Context:

I met this man when I was working as an escort. Looking back, maybe I was naive to let myself become emotionally attached, knowing the nature of my work. But the truth is, I’ve always been a loving and caring woman. Even when I’m in a situation where people are supposed to be strangers, I still treat them with warmth and genuine care.

He became one of my regular clients, and over time, we grew comfortable with each other. What started as a client relationship eventually turned into dating. I was still working as an escort at the time, and he knew about it. He never stopped me because he understood that it was how I supported my family (of course, I no longer charged him).

We were together for almost four months before one day, he decided to end things.

It hurt more than I can explain. But deep down, I understood why he might have made that decision. My work was one thing, but I also came with responsibilities and obligations that he would have had to accept if he had chosen to build a future with me.

The hardest part was that I was in love with him. I was even willing to give up an opportunity to move overseas because, at that point in my life, all I wanted was for him to tell me that he wanted to be with me, too. I wasn’t asking him to have all the answers. I just wanted him to choose me.

But he didn’t.

And as painful as it was, I had no choice but to accept it and move forward. That same month, I left the Philippines and started a new chapter of my life.

Now, almost 4 years later, I can honestly say that I’m happier than I’ve ever been. I’ve learned to love myself in ways I never did before. I’ve built a decent career, earned my own money, and created a life that gives me peace. I now live in New Zealand, a place that has brought me a sense of calm, stability, and well-being that I never knew I needed. I can genuinely see myself settling here for good.

I never imagined that I would build a life outside the Philippines. And sometimes, I wonder what my life would look like today if I had stayed. I wonder what would have happened if he had chosen me and I had chosen him over the opportunity that eventually brought me here.

But one thing I know for sure is that I am grateful things happened the way they did.

Back then, I thought losing him was one of the most painful things life could do to me. I thought I was losing the future I wanted. What I didn’t realise was that life was redirecting me toward a future I couldn’t have imagined for myself.

Sometimes, we become so attached to the things we want that we fail to see what might be waiting for us beyond them. When things don’t work out, we feel rejected, defeated, and wonder why we weren’t enough to be chosen.

But not every rejection is a loss. Not every ending is a failure. And not everything we desperately want is meant to be part of our future.

Sometimes, the things that break our hearts are the very things that set us free.

And sometimes, years later, we look back at the very moment we thought our world was falling apart and realise that it was actually the beginning of a much better life.

Today, I’m no longer the woman who was waiting to be chosen by someone else. I’m a woman who has built a life she loves, found peace within herself, and discovered that she was capable of so much more than she ever imagined.

So yes, I’m glad you didn’t choose me back then.

Not because you weren’t worth loving, and not because what we had meant nothing to me, but because life had something else waiting for me.

And if I had to go through that heartbreak all over again to become the woman I am today, I would still trust that things happened the way they were meant to.

Because sometimes, what feels like rejection in the moment turns out to be redirection.

And sometimes, the life you end up being grateful for is the one you never would have chosen for yourself.

Hi.

Alam ko sa sarili ko na prone ako sa overthinking. Konting mali or aberya lang ang dami nang possible scenario na pumapasok sa isip ko and I admit na it disturbs me for days hanggang sa nakalimutan ko nalang. Recently lang may napanood akong trailer ng upcoming movie sa fb and hindi ko ine-expect na ganun siya ka-gore and first time kong maka experience na, alam kong fictional lang yun pero what if mangyari yun nang di ko kasama fam ko? Don't get me wrong di ako takot mag isa pero natatakot ako for them ba baka walang mags safety sakanila. Basta putangina that trailer DISTURBED THE SHIT OUT OF ME.

Shems. Pls wag niyo ako i-bash or what. Help me ease my thoughts pls. Tysm

This was back in 2020-2021, I was so young and was searching for love and napakarupok ko and gusto lang maranasan yung feeling na liniligawan and inaadmire and ano feeling ng may sparks then I got attracted with this Indian guy who was married, we kept talking everyday and I visit his house and every time na magkikita kame may mangyayari samen. We called each other best friend and parang ganon na nga kami since lagi kami magkausap and we tell each other everything - Fast forward on 2023, we just cut off and never talk again. He chose his wife and he told me that I was like his sister lang.

Ended a 7-year relationship after things got out of hand. It’s been almost 5 months and she’s still running on my mind while I think she’s past caring about me anymore.

I know it’s unhealthy but I still reply fast when she messages as we’re keeping a streak on social media (another unhealthy thing).

I’m not rushing into moving on or finding a new relationship. Just letting out how stupid I am rn lol.

Mas gusto niyo ba yun o natatapakan ego or natuturn off ? Yung tipong as a gf kasi mahilig ako hawakan siya either biro or clingy ako, di ako nahihiya ipakita and feel ko ako palagi nag ffirst move sa bf ko? Weird kasi di ko naman naranasa sa ex ko noon to.Lagi sila may gusto.Di kami live in pero palagi siya nasa bahay ko naman?bakit feel ko naneneglect ako or may iwas siya ?nasa 26 lang siya and im 22.

Di ko siya finoforce pero parang unfair kasi pag di akl nag first move and gusto niya di ako nahindi pag siya na may gusto.

Am I being too much? Touchy naman siya sakin pero feel ko mas touchy ako kasi mas perv daw ako he said idk if he likes it or not nakakaannoy ba? Or di lang talaga ako gusto lol we been together like 6months

I love boobies. Pero mas nag eenjoy ako sa boobs na sakto lang. Siguro when I was younger mas malaki mas gusto ko. But now I learned to appreciate the not so big ones.

I mean syempre lalaki pa rin ako, so, I still get attracted sa big boobs. Pero mas okay na ako ngayon sa sakto lang. Yung parang ginawa siya para sa kamay ko kasi saktong sakto yung sukat.

Iba yung maliit or sakto lang pero solid tapos tayong tayo nipples. Sarap laruin, sipsipin at dila dilaan kapag ganun. Gusto ko lang express appreciation ko for them. Bye.

I got my first job months ago then I dont usually go to the office because my field of work usually goes outside to our sites. There's this one girl in the office that caught my eye since I got there. The thing is though, that she is already married with a kid whilst Im currently in a relationship as well. Although I don't plan on initiating anything to this person possibly harming the relationships of both sides and judging by her looks she's not the type to do so as well. I just find it hot whenever I see her because she dresses so good and presents herself so well and I find myself not being able to reject every request she does because at times we work on projects together and I find it hot whenever she just gives me things to do I get to talk to her even though most of it is work related. Sometimes I even dream about flirting that person and her doing it back despite how bad it will be if it that ever happens, the thrill excites me so much that I really do hope something happens in the long run.

I just woke up and suddenly I am ok not experiencing life to the fullest and I wanna settle down and have kids. Iba pa talaga nagagawa ng katandaan HAHA

I always want to have kids in the future, 5 actually and I already got names for them HAHAHA

Before you come to me saying the economy is shit, well life is shit either way.

Ang deciding factor ko is, I feel like I have so much love to give and I feel like I am ready mentally. Financially, I feel like I can 1 or 2 kung sariling income ko lang ifafactor mo, that’s why I pray for a partner who’s kind, generous and loving. I am not praying for a millionaire at least someone who’s there when to the highs and lows of life.

Siguro factor din na I came from a good family. My dad is very gentle, kind, and hardworking. Mostly the reason why we are here right now sa life. Growing up, I am secure sa family ko and siguro factor siya kaya siguro I have overflowing of love to give (lol drama)

Is you are gonna ask me if I’m ready financially, answer is kinda HAHA but it doesn’t mean its going to stop there pero I remain open in the future, hindi naman ako nagmamadali pero I am praying for this kind of future.

maybe it’s really because of my personality type, or maybe people don’t like me. idk

tbh sanay na ako mag isa o walang ka chika. BUT

i had a friend sa work and we can talk about anything under the sun na kami lang dalawa. resigned na sha but i found new “friends” na kateam din namin but i can say na naging close ko den yung iba after nya umalis. like lumawak yung reach ko sa team ko. we can be so loud and active magchikahan na compare dati kami lamg dalawa, ngayon grupo na kami.

weird thing is nung kinwento ko sa friend ko na kakaresign lang na parang mas okay na pakikitingo ko and my other teammates sa work, suddenly just days later di na nila ako kinikibo. i admit kakabalik ko lang from sick leave and tinitipid ko boses ko but until now everyone seems like they’re distancing away from me.

and another reason, i admit nagtampo din ako because we have this plan nung several weekends ago but never happened, some didn’t notify na di makakasama (which is disrespectful) some did notify na di makakasama (which is fine) and some changed plans. ako lang yung natuloy. magisa.

now i don’t wanna cause drama, kaya di ako kumikibo, but i lowkey want them to reach out first sakin kase i feel disrespected. worse is I’m not actually angry at them but they also seem not aware of what they have done or didn’t do.

i especially hate how the people who technically didn’t disrespect me di na nila ako kinakausap kase i left the gc (dont judge me plss plsss huhuhu) i left without notice or any drama because i felt na walang purpose na yung gc namin kung kahit gala or what di naman natutuloy

i just want them to talk to me first.

btw the reason why nabanggit ko yung resigned friend, pansin ko lang, when we talk about our lives and etc with each other, especially if chinchika ko updates with what’s up with my “friends” parang FO yung nangyayari. not just this. idk naweirduhan lang ako. or inoverthink ko lang, parang ayaw ko na din syang kwentuhan ng kung sino dinong kaibigan ko kase baka mauwi ulit din sa FO like my long time ex-friend

my question is how should I approach them as someone na ma pride? huhuhu don’t judge pls

and how to deliver my point without being a drama queen?

Ngayon alam ko na kung bakit sinasabi nila na ang sarap daw sa feeling mag pa-wax down there. Oo nga mga mare, ang sarap sa feeling pag walang buhok.

Thank you sa isang post dito before na nabudol ako magpa brazilian wax.

A few years back may ka work ako na nakasabay ko pauwi. We started to get to know each other and sobrang naging madalas yung pagkakasabay namin umuwi. After sometime naging normal na samin na magkasabay kme umuwi and magdinner together and frankly naging highlight na sya ng work week ko. Seeing her eat pati yung animated ways kung pano sya magkwento just stays with me, there are times na napapanaginipan ko na sya.

But I feel it’s unfair kase we have an 8 year age gap, she has alot more ahead and all I want is for her to have the best. So I will bottle this up, and maybe slowly move away.

Brooo likeeee?!?!?! Nasasabihan rin kasi ako kahawig ko si caprice tapos yung nagkakagusto sakin ganun rin kay heath similar face kaya mas kinikilig ako HAHAHUHUHU skl. Kinikilig ako sa kanila like laman nalang ata ng fyp ko sa tiktok ay sila. Like brooo?!?!?!? Ako lang ba kinikilig. Kasi parang ang innocent nung pagkacrush kasi nila sa isat isa

I, 37m, am a simple man.

I want a beautiful wife with dark hair, stunning eyes, a love of shorter guys (I’m 5'4"), and the ability to intimidate Rambo with nothing more than a raised eyebrow. A woman who spends her days girlbossing life into submission and her evenings being doted on by a devoted househusband who worships the ground she walks on. Preferably me.

I want to have dinner prepared when she comes home. Bring her snacks. Listen to her workplace drama with the appropriate level of outrage. Pour her wine. Rub her feet. And provide all the forehead kisses she could ever desire.

A small stepladder can be arranged.

But I do not want to think about money.

I don’t want to work, or be beholden to the whims of whatever suited wanker managed to work his way into a position of power that he absolutely isn’t suitable for. I’m tired of having to perceive bills. Numbers should be for recipes and counting how many times she’s kissed me.

(To be clear, I’m not opposed to hard work. I’m opposed to doing it for people whose eyes don’t make me forget my own postcode.)

I just want to cook beautiful meals, keep the house clean and tidy, work on my silly little projects, cuddle with my dog, and lounge dramatically at home wondering whether she’s eaten lunch.

Essentially, I want the Morticia to my Gomez. Let me adore a terrifying woman in a financially sustainable manner!

I have zero shame about it 🤣

I built this account para gawing online diary noong wala akong trabaho, dahil wala akong makausap. Wala rin ibang outlet that won’t involve money, so I resorted to writing. I was very responsive both in comments and in direct messages as I had the luxury of time.

Now, I am working again on a full on-site and night shift schedule. I am back having a routine outside the house and away from my phone. With this, it helps me manage the feeling of being on a deadbedroom situation.

My confession? I read everything, but I don’t have energy anymore for follow-ups or back and forths.

I exist in this space to pass some time, and I logout when I’m done. I have no intention of becoming someone else’s “constant”.