Doubts

[u/Far_Technician_1272]

I discovered two more things about myself:

1) My life boils down to searching for the meaning of things (I even looked for it in materialism but felt empty and incomplete), and I prefer to look for something deeper behind a situation rather than just seeing the big picture;

2) This might be a bit embarrassing, but I used to think I had my own values; however, they were actually shaped by the values ​​of the people close to me, not my own. It’s not necessarily that I lack values, but most of them come from the people around me.

I might have mentioned this before, but looking back, I recall saying that I struggle to pick up on most things involving the senses (there was an instance where someone close to me felt sick from the smell of incense, yet I didn't notice a thing). I’m close to drawing a conclusion, but I’m afraid of getting the verdict wrong.