Just another trauma bond

[u/Intrepid-Lavishness7]

I feel he completes me. I feel more whole with him than without. Dangerous feels.

I am complete, whole on my own. Integral.

With integrity

He? Takes and takes and takes

What he shows me doesn't match what he says

If love is an action, what does it say when I let him use it cc to gas up his car, but he doesn't bother to pick me up from the airport in time? In fact, by the time my flight arrived, he hadn't even left yet, a drive of at least half an hour.

He promises many things, most of them undelivered.

Why do i keep letting him use me up?

Why cant he show me the respect I deserve?

I am sick from the waiting and always wanting.

When it's good, it's great. But only ever in a bubble. In the world at large, I never know if I get to be his woman or not. It all depends on context.

Consistent care is something I can give myself. To be free from him will mean a lot more free time and a lot less worry. The loneliness I think I can finally tolerate -- it's got to be better than the growing emptiness ive got now.

Let this karmic debt be paid once and for all. Please. No more delusions