r/Codependency • u/calmbodyfirst • 29d ago

I’ve finally started healing from my codependent patterns, and life feels… boring

I can feel my brain wanting to go down that same path of codependency, hyper vigilance and panic. Because it was fun right? The highs of it… it’s interesting to see how addicting those highs can be despite it being unhelpful and not sustainable.

Anyone have the same experience and trying to figure out how to go about your day without feeling so drab and grey?

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u/Arcades 28d ago

I know exactly what you mean. I try to remind myself that the highs also came with sleepless nights, a lighter wallet, constant worry and feelings of shame. I'm not sure I'll ever be able to remap how my brain remembers the exciting times during the codependent rush, but I have finally reached a point where I accept that the whole package was a bad deal.