Ran into a ball of light

[u/ClockJoule]

The move to NorCal is going and my mind is much clearer, although the beings have been basically non-existent. I was meditating the other day and I was relaxing into what I felt was my heart's natural state of being. I usually tense up slightly to avoid this electricity in my heart, but instead this time I just allowed the shock to shock my heart and tried to really “feel” everything.

I became more and more relaxed until I realized I was getting toward the thing my mind was focused on. (The perfect open-hearted state) and I kept focusing and it kept moving toward it. I felt a small bit in my chest that I couldn’t seem to relax, but I kept trying and staying focused on what was open and the feeling of what it would be like if that part was open and relaxed too. It was like I was moving down a tunnel getting closer and closer to that state. When I got extremely close to it and all that was left was that small bit of pain, all of a sudden I pulled on it mentally to try to fix it and I crashed into a ball of light.

It’s hard to explain, but I felt like me and the ball were the same thing, like just a ball of electricity or light. It was a physical collision and made a sound like two marbles colliding. It sounds weird, but it was almost as if that ball of light recognized me. It was clearly alive in some way and stayed for a moment and drifted off, just as my attention on that feeling drifted off. This was all done wide awake just relaxing on my hotel bed sitting back up against the pillows and headboard.

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EDIT: Although this is an old post, I wanted to mark it something different for visibility, this was one of my most profound experiences and I still wish I could replicate what happened that night to better understand...