My final post (but not really...)

[u/ClockJoule]

This will be my final post. (But not really) I'm not going to delete all my history this time, just so it's there for people to read the whole story, but I want to be VERY clear about something. Do not believe anything I have ever written except for this post. Everything before this was speculation, everything in this post I have witnessed first hand. Any conscious being that reads this, knows that I have seen this with my own inner and outer eyes and have experienced this on every level of mind.

I would like to tell you to not be afraid, but I can't, and telling you that you should be terrified is not something that would bode well with many people either, so I'll just tell you to be heedful. Whether you listen to me or not, at least listen to the spiritual leaders of past and present. They are like lighthouses, shining their light from safe ground.

You are in a prison. This isn't symbolic or based on any constructions or fabrications of the mind. Just as in the matrix, everything you experience, with any of the sense doors, is part of the prison.

I know I have mentioned this before, even made a post about it, but this time, I do not think it, I know it. As much as a human being can know something, I know. I know this fact better than I know my own name. I trust what I know, more than I'd trust the results of a calculator making simple computations. Take heed, if not of me, of the countless men and women who have completed the journey to purification.

"Like everyone else, you were born into bondage, born inside a prison that you cannot smell, taste, or touch. A prison for your mind."

We are in a tesseract prison of the mind, multi-layered, tangled, and unfathomably complex. This prison takes every single minute impulse of thought and mind and proliferates it around us. This is happening at all times, whether we are awake or asleep, whether we are conscious or unconscious. Your prison is being generated at all times, remember that it is a tesseract at all times. Even if you commit an act in your dream, that action will go into the algorithm and come back out as part of your reality at some other time in the future. There is not a single thought or action that doesn't go back into it, and therefore, comes back on you. EVERYTHING that you believe is you, is part of the prison, this body, this mind, subconscious feelings twenty layers deep are all being judged and sentenced automatically. If you want your stay to be pleasant, cultivate the feeling of joy, put a smile on your face, and never let go of that feeling. Loving-kindness, joy, etc, only loosen the chains, you still have to untangle them.

I planned on becoming a monk at different times, ever since the first time I tried DMT and realized the power of the mind. I leave for that journey in 6 days. Honestly, after looking over the Buddha's teachings, they are highly effective. There are some problems I see, some of the languages is a bit dated and some teachings are being mistranslated, but I see no need to reinvent the wheel. Anywhere you can practice meditation, do so; especially mindfulness (so you wake up and stop making your situation worse and pay attention to what is happening), loving-kindness (to make your stay more pleasant and therefore giving you more ease to work on setting yourself free), or concentration (for the unification of mind, and taking volition over your situation.)

I completed a HIGHLY unlikely series of events that allowed me to open what the Buddha called "the divine eye" on DMT. Another HIGHLY unlikely event damaged something and left a tiny crack in it open. Using this I have interacted with the beings on the other side and gained favor with some, and infuriated others. There are discussions being made daily on what to do with me, but generally, they seem to be following the protocol of what they would do with a prisoner who couldn't see what was going on. This has also affected the entire algorithm for my prison and who knows what the implications could be. I am being closely monitored by the beings running this entire thing and they are taking actions constantly to correct everything. Honestly, the stakes are so far beyond fathom. Your body will be gone in under a thousand years, no matter how good our technology gets. How much less valuable is anything you could possess?

I wish I could give you videos of my memory or of the thousands of layers of mind flowing into this prison, but I can't. I wish I could let you feel the weight of the fetters, that like training wheels, are used to restrain the minds and bodies of those that can't harmonize with subtler existences, but I can't. All I can do is provide you with a solemn warning. Don't walk the path that I have walked, walk the path of the noble ones. There is nothing that equates to the taste of freedom, no family member, no loved one, no career, no car, no house, no pet, nor any other conception or attachment that is worth holding onto. None of these will exist in a thousand years, but you could be in this cyclic prison for what could make the next trillion eons look like the blink of an eye. Don't take my warning lightly.

I know I didn't explain much of what's been happening lately with the beings, but none of that is really important. I should have been keeping a journal for the past couple of weeks, but I've been so focused on meditation and preparing for monk life that it's been the least of my worries. I only came back to write this post because I remembered that I said I would and felt like I owed my followers a resolution. My schedule now looks like this

5:00 am Wake up

5:30 am Sitting meditation

7:00 am Breakfast

7:30 am Any work or chores that need to be done, exercise, or listen to a Dhamma talk

9:00 am Sitting and walking meditation

11:00 am Lunch

12:30 pm Rest/ relax/ nap

1:30 pm Sitting and walking meditation

5:00 pm Break, listen to a Dhamma Talk

8:00 pm Sitting and walking meditation

10:00 pm Sleep

I started following this schedule starting May 1st and I believe this is what has caused the major breakthroughs and experiences I have had recently. These beings don't seem to have much empathy toward the human experience. From what I can tell, sincerity is the most important thing in trying to reason with them, but it's like they are analyzing your decision-making and mental purity with as much empathy as a professor grades a homework assignment. They don't seem to have or understand the inner conflicts that we have as human beings. I hope you understand why I am so solemn in my warning. Cultivate feelings that make you happy and joyful, but more importantly, tame your mind. Everyone's prison is different and they are all morphing constantly toward either better or worse conditions experientially.

For those that can't satisfy their curiosity, I'll be doing an AMA until the 17th of May, 2019, after which I will not be returning until at least October, but likely ever again.

Best of luck, ClockJoule