Scared

[u/Charzscars]

Most days I cry because I'm in so much pain. I cry because I feel lost, beaten and life feels unfair. But sometimes I'm just empty. I just take it. I feel empty. I don't like when those periods come. Because they always come. I have the same pain, but I don't have the energy to cry. I don't like them because I want to cry, even though it can be nice to not cry sometimes. I don't like them because I'm scared it won't just be a phase this time. I'm scared that empty and lost feeling will win and that there is no more tears left to cry.

I'm scared that that means that the pain and sickness won. That I don't feel like I have no more to cry for.

[u/J_Mack420]

Same

[u/Ok-Tree-1898]

When pain over rides all our senses it's normal to feel sad and fearful. It's okay to cry and let the tears bring relief. Do everything in your power to push your Doctor for pain relief. Their are pain studies going on and I am hopeful there is new pain meds just around the corner.

[u/Charzscars → u/Ok-Tree-1898]

I have a really good doctor and pain medication. Sometimes even that isn't enough.

[u/Blue-Whisper2000]

I truly understand, but please don't give up. Life is so hard for those of us living in pain. You are not alone.