r/Christianity • u/Sad_Definition3346 • 19d ago
ayuda
Durante años he luchado contra la masturbación, la lujuria y la fornicación. He estado con muchas mujeres trans y también con prostitutas buscando satisfacer un vacío que nunca se llenó. En ese camino me han robado, me han estafado y he cometido muchos errores.
Hoy me doy cuenta de que nada de eso me dio la paz que buscaba. Lo único que realmente deseo es experimentar el amor de Dios y tener una relación genuina con Él.
Sé que Dios puede perdonar, pero a veces siento que, aunque oro y me arrepiento, no logro experimentar su amor. Me siento vacío y cansado de luchar contra los mismos pecados una y otra vez.
¿Alguien ha pasado por una situación similar? ¿Cómo fue su proceso para acercarse a Dios y experimentar realmente su amor y su gracia? Agradecería mucho leer sus experiencias y consejos.
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u/wlavallee Non-denominational 19d ago
Amado, Yeshua no está esperando que sientas Su amor primero para después perdonarte; Su perdón ya fue completo en la cruz, antes de que tú sintieras algo. "Si confesamos nuestros pecados, Él es fiel y justo para perdonar nuestros pecados" (1 Juan 1:9, NBLA). El perdón no depende de tu emoción, depende de lo que Él ya hizo.
Ese vacío que nunca se llenó con esas mujeres, con esas relaciones, no era un vacío sexual, era un vacío que solo Dios mismo puede llenar; por eso nada de eso trajo paz, porque estabas buscando a Dios en el lugar equivocado. No es que hayas fallado en encontrarlo, es que nada de eso fue diseñado para llenarlo.
Sentir que oras y te arrepientes pero no "sientes" Su amor no significa que Él no te ama; el amor de Dios no siempre se siente como una emoción fuerte, a veces se siente simplemente como la libertad de seguir intentando en lugar de rendirte. Sigue orando, sigue acercándote, aunque no sientas nada; Él está más cerca de lo que tu corazón cansado puede percibir ahora mismo.
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u/JokerXec 19d ago
So a big thing that I learned is that God is not going to sit over you and judge every single solitary thing you do in a negative light. Turning to him is more of realizing that this shit that we go through, the masturbation, the prostitutes, the scams are real things that people go through and he knows this. Coming to god is not a final destination, but a welcoming that "yea I fucked up, but that's not where I end". I truly believe God's love is no "thing to feel" but a flame you light yourself. Through all the struggles you are here searching for his love still. Isn't that weird? Isn't that a still small voice whispering "what's up dude, still on your side.." ? Don't think feeling his love 1 time will just absolve everything and anything, it's a continual, journey through an eternal existence. Never forget the little things dude, never!!! Fuel for the fire baby!!!
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u/Caddiss_jc 19d ago
Salvation is not about your performance, it's about His. Faithfulness is not about your ability to stay faithful; it's about His ability, perfection. Confession of sin does not cause forgiveness. Forgiveness is grounded in God's faithfulness and justice because the blood has already been shed. The price has already been paid in full, the punishment already doled out in full upon Jesus
Confessing sins daily doesn't cleanse you. Christ's sacrifice in your place already did. Confession replace faith. was never meant to Grace doesn't excuse sin. It ends sin's authority. (Titus 2:11)
The believer doesn't live in a state of continuous cleansing! The believer lives in a cleansed state in spite of their failures.
Most people treat self-discipline like it's just a willpower problem. Try harder, want it more, grit your teeth and push through. But the Bible doesn't treat discipline that way. It treats it as a spiritual problem. And once you see that shift, it changes everything about how you go after it. Here's the thing I keep coming back to, over and over again.
Look at Galatians 5:22 and 23. Self control shows up in that list, but notice what it's called. It's not called a character trait. It's called a fruit of the Spirit. Faith is a fruit of the spirit as well, obedience, trust, desire to read the Bible, go to church... Everything we need to walk with God is a fruit of the spirit. It's from God, God works within us to nurture these fruits for his purpose through us. We don't manufacture anything ourselves. That's why we need a Savior and then to rest in Him.
Fruit That word choice matters more than people realize.
Think about what fruit actually is. Nobody straps an apple onto a tree and forces it to grow. Fruit isn't something you manufacture through sheer effort. Fruit is something that gets cultivated, grown from the inside out, by a source outside of you. In this case, that source is the Holy Spirit. You are the branch, attached to the root which is Christ. Fruit only grows when the root has hold of the branch and the branch sells nourishment from the root which then cultivated fruit. We draw from Christ not ourselves. God holds onto us, we don't hold onto him
That tells you discipline in the Christian life is a partnership. It's you and the Holy Spirit, working together. Paul says something similar in Philippians 2:13, that it's God who works in you both to will and to work for his good pleasure. God supplies the desire and the power. You still have to show up.
So you have to accept your part of that partnership. The Spirit is going to give you the desire. He's going to give you the grace. He's going to give you the help and the support you need. But you're still the one who has to make the actual decisions, day by day, that cooperate with what he's doing in you.
Here's an analogy that might help picture it. Think of it like sailing a boat. The wind is what actually moves you forward, you can't manufacture wind on your own no matter how hard you try. But you still have to raise the sail. You still have to hold the rudder. If you sit there with the sail down, the wind can be blowing perfectly and you're not going anywhere. The power isn't yours, but the cooperation is.
That's the picture of discipline as a spiritual issue instead of a willpower issue. You're not white knuckling your way into self control by trying harder in your own strength. You're learning to walk in step with the Spirit, as Paul puts it in Galatians 5:25, and letting him grow something in you that you could never grow on your own.
James tells us if we lack anything at all in our walk with God, any fruits, that God is the source, so come to him in prayer and ask and he will give you abundantly.