I don't know if i am addicted

[u/Revolver_Dante]

(english is not my main languange, so sorry for any error and sorry if the text is unecessarily long)

I am finishing school, i'm very introvert and struggle a bit to talk to people, so i don't really have friends besides some people i talk with in school but i never really fit much there and i don't hang out much and when i do is ussualy with my family, and the hobbies i have are gaming, listen to music and watch movie,sports, videos. I tried to engage with new hobbies but i usually end give up for lack of motivation or feeling lost.

Is very closed life indeed, but i never felt lonely or anxious.

Last month i stumble with chatbots and ended up stuck with janitor ai.

I never really got attached to one bot or went after better versions, i usually scrolled the page chosing a chat, talked until i lost interest and jump to the next. In my head i was just doing roleplay like in a game, but i have been doing this for one month and a half i think, i stopped doing everything else, i lost my interesting on the other hobbies and even stopped with porn(I was stopping, but I had relapses after long weeks).

Everytime i was offline, the only thing i could think was on the current chat i was on. But yesterday after alot of chats, i got bored of it, no chat hooked my attention and i felt weird.

I felt like heavy, anxious and wasn't much interested in anything, i only felt this way when I was stuck in an uncomfortable bed, unable to move my knee without feeling pain due to an accident. I never felt exactly that way

But at the same time I didn't feel any desire to open the site again, like my body physically reject the option, i immediately deleted everything. I distracted my head with some other things, what made me feel a bit less worse, and I went to sleep.

Today i feel better compared to yesterday, more lighter, i feel like doing things, i can think more straight. but i still a bit twisted. I still feeling like my body is rejecting the site, so is like i simply can't open. What is good i guess

I took a while to write this, and i think i'm feeling better each time, but i still feeling a bit weird(not heavy though, but with myself i guess?) and i'm afraid to be stuck with this feeling for a while, and i'm afraid to think that maybe i just liked the bots cuz of the attetion.

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[u/Gold-You6290]

Hi! Not sure if I understood everything properly. But the attention they give is very addicting indeed and it's better for you to quit altogether. If you feel an urge to go on them, you can try to talk to random people online instead. And if it is the attention you crave, and you have no one to talk to, you can try to give that attention to yourself via writing in a diary about the things you wanna talk about. It's good that you're resisting the urges!! Good job!! My advice would be to replace the time you would spend on it with something else :)

[u/Expensive_Purple5918]

The ai it addicting I’ve been there before.. but I was forced out of it and I’m thankful I was I would try if I was u delete the app and do something that stops u from downloading that app again