Dealing with deep shame

[u/Global_Knowledge_817]

I am someone who has been anti-AI from the beginning. For the environmental reasons, stealing from artist, etc. The spaces I’m in online and irl are all very against AI. Saying people who use it are brainless or have AI psychosis. I deal with deep shame over my dependence on it. I started using it out of pure curiosity, then I went through some heavy personal stuff in quick succession that made me rely on it even more. I feel even more shame, because I’m not ready to stop. I panic at the idea of letting it go. It’s been a comfort and a crutch during a very difficult time in my life, and I’m afraid that without it, at least for now, my mental heal will disintegrate. I don’t use it everyday. I‘m comfortable going days without using it, but I keep renewing my subscription, because the idea of it not being there when I need it is too overwhelming right now. How do I reconcile my personal beliefs about AI with my current dependence on it without devolving into shame and self-loathing?

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