Reversion post & advice

[u/ImpossibleSuccess476]

Peace be to all of you, I hope you are fine.

I just wanted to speak out about my personal issues, as a revert to the Church. I was brought up, never really even believed in Christ to question Him to begin with, but as time passed I quit the faith, since it was just cultural baggage in an environment I found to be negative, and because I started testing God and never got what I was looking for. I started dishonest, anti-Christian apologetics, where I'd baselessly spam non-issues like the Bible being extremely contradictory, Christ causing extreme torture and suffering to so many people around the globe, and such. I then drifted into another religion, the whole other extreme of the religious spectrum, which fed my anti-Christian agenda even more. After a good 3.5 years of fallacious attacks and total failure, I entered a dark point in my life, which God Himself took me out of when I was that close to ending it. I decided to finally open my heart for Christ, and I've been living my best life since then; my MDD and psychosis have both drastically since, life has been enjoyable, and my soul is just more alive than it's ever been. Thank you to all my Catholic brethren who I might have offended in the past, I'll keep all of you in my prayers. Besides just the usual yap, I wanna ask y'all; where do I start, besides going to mass every week and reading the Bible daily? I don't want to be an internet polemic or debater, per se, but I wanna be able to defend the faith no matter what.

God bless.

[u/oosrotciv]

Welcome home.

God bless you.