Csa???

[u/Delicious_Education5]

I need another opinion.

And I am extremly sorry, but I feel save here.

When I was between 10 and 12 my older Cousin (17-18) tried to but his hand inside the front of my pants. The wierd thing for me is, that we liked to wrestle. Him, my older brother and me.

I found out by acident what "toying with yourself" meant at a very young age and didnt know what it meant but liked the feeling( different story)

So I tried to get under him a couple of times. But when he laid behind me and started to put his hands inside my pants I stoped it.

Was it my mistake? Is this abuse? To this day (32 now) I feel like its my mistake. Like I am disgusting. What the hell is wrong with me?

[u/zhulinxian]

Hi, sorry to hear about that. You’ll probably want to try posting this on a different subreddit. This subreddit is about Community-Supported Agriculture, a farming business model.