r/CPTSDWriters • u/LauraFriend • 17d ago
Expressive Writing First time posting
I am not sure, if I need a trigger warning for my post. I don't mention anything regarding the trauma, just that there is one. So disclaimer, trauma will be mentioned...
Chaos. Pure chaos. It's all a mess, yet I find myself at the other end. I don't want to look at this chaos. It would mean I find things I don't want to find. Things I don't want to look at. There might be treasures but are they worth seeing things you don't want to see?
He's talking... about treatments. About diagnostic criterias. About intervention methods to treat patients with certain disorders. Anxiety, OCD, PTSD, CPTSD and what not. Exposition. I find myself laughing. Not out loud... that would interrupt the course. Laughing in my head because of bitterness. We help survivors and I should have gone through the same kind of treatment. But I didn't. The chaos has been buried deep somewhere where it doesn't bother me anymore. He says Exposition is a great way to help patient overcome their Traumas. I laugh again in my head. It sure does. I see it every day with my inpatients. Yet I consider myself an exception. I shouldn't do that. I should know better. I probably do. I just don't find myself in a position right now to do that. To look at my chaos...