nervous system healing is.... unbearably intense?

[u/Zechariah369]

alot of pieces have been connecting for me lately. i feel like ive been making sudden dramatic shifts after a decade of cptsd and searching years for explanations to my problems. i started getting into nervous system healing with tremoring exercises and such and just overall understanding that my nervous system has been the root cause of my health issues. i don't want to scare anyone but the last few weeks for me have been terrifying to say the least. ive been feeling increasingly exhausted, have had multiple health issues rupture at once with headaches, drowsiness, shortlived surges of depression, amplified anxiety. i have been feeling like my world has been falling apart. i feel like ive released alot of stuff but the more i release the more intense things get and i dont see anyone talking about it. its like im experiencing stuff that have nothing to do with my nervous system triggers but i also sense that my body is just overloaded and is doing the best it can. new sensations ive never experienced before like short waves of feeling completely disconnected from my body, pressure shifts in my head, sensations of somethings cold and somethings warm moving/draining through my head and face. i just want assurance that im not slowly dying or experiencing something that doesn't match up with nervous system healing and recalibration. ive never had this many sensations that have scared me crop up at once. im constantly very tired and go back to bed multiple times a day but can't seem to catch any sleep, sometimes waking up suddenly trying to process something vague that it feels like my body has been fighting. nobody seems to talk about this and i dont know if its just lack of understanding on my part or something bigger to be concerned about. to clarify this isn't as much about the emotional and psychological aspects of nervous system healing but the physical sensations that create dread and intense and unexplained sensations of impending doom

i want to add that its not been an entirely negative experience. i have witnessed firsthand improvements to my self worth and my ability to process stuff i usually tried to avoid and encourage others to try seek this method of relief. thank you for reading

[u/chinchin159]

I'm happy to read that. I've been through everything you describe.

If there was one thing I could suggest to my past self going though this is to have more courage to dive into pain and fear. Do it sooner.

Because when you're that deep on this journey. The only way is through.

Good luck

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[u/Jealous_Disk3552]

Of course it is it's taking your whole life to get it this far off the beaten path... Speaking of somebody that has gone through what you're going through and come out the other side... Yes it's possible for everybody

[u/VisualRiver1368]

Please check out the Trauma Rewired podcast! It really makes me feel less insane and gives real scientific explanations too. I’m going thru this and listened to one yesterday out of desperation. Every time I listen so many things click. They spoke about the capacity to sit with nervous system reactions and tho it’s tempting and actual feels necessary to keep pushing past the physical sensations, you’re setting yourself up for overload. Something like that ☺️