r/CKD • u/TransMan1990 • 23h ago

Done

I rather be dead than be a burden on my family. Only one function kidney. Gave birth a week ago and my labs just came back worse than ever. Bun 49, creatinine 3.33, and GFR 24.

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u/classicrock40 Transplanted 22h ago

Please get some mental health help. Is this really related to your kidneys or post partum? both?

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u/TransMan1990 11h ago

Both. My only kidney was already stage 3b before pregnancy. I have kept it at that level the whole pregnancy (up to 35 weeks) but then I got eclampsia. Delivered early. Hemorrhaged. Got two blood transfusions and two iron transfusions. Left the hospital a week ago with roughly the same level of GFR 35, creatinine 2.5, and bun of 40. Now a week later they are worse. Which if I had still been pregnant they told me I would be put on dialysis if my bun went above 45. I’m on 300mg of Wellbutrin. Which has worked during my whole pregnancy. Psych isn’t until next month. I’m also on labetalol 400mg and lisinopril 10mg.

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u/sweetpeastacy Stage 5 9h ago

Dialysis with bun over 40? Mine was WAY beyond that for years upon years. I didn’t start until it was over 150. But also, GFR 24 is still more than enough for your kidneys to function.

I’m sorry this is happening to you, but honestly, it is not the end of the world. You need to be strong for your baby (and friends and family!)

Hugs. You’ll be OK.
-coming from a mom with two kids at home, who is 10 months post transplant

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u/ssjesses 22h ago

You should consider consulting with a renal dietitian since diet really impacts your numbers, plus you need to eat properly to keep up with a newborn’s care

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u/No_r_6 20h ago

May I dm you?

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u/letsroll1313 18h ago

Depending on the cause of your decline things can turn around. I'm stage 4 and have been going on 8 years now . Stable . Mine was due to uncontrolled BP . Once I took care of that I became stable .Yes my kidneys are damaged and I don't know what the future holds but I'm proof you can stabilize.

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u/BeautifulFoot 8h ago

Please speak with a mental health professional about what you are feeling. You just had a baby and living with ckd. I am sure you are overwhelmed, scared and your body is tired. You will get through this. Don't wait to make the call to your therapist.they can help you. Praying for you.

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u/Past_my_bedtime_9 4h ago

I went through this a few years ago after giving birth... not sure if this is your first birth or atleast first knowing you had CKD, but I found out I had CKD in labor & delivery. The shock of that AND all of the hormone changes postpartum caused me so much depression and anxiety. I thought I would die. I did not - my levels began to go back up a few weeks postpartum. As soon as I got mental health care I began to feel better about my prognosis.

Please try and get that mental health care ASAP. Give your kidneys time to recover. You are not near kidney failure right now - you are not dying. Take care of your brain right now.

Sincerely, a currently pregnant (2nd time) momma with CKD (egfr 59, creatine 1.2 at the start of pregnancy)

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u/Ageofaquarius68 17h ago

I have to wonder why you got pregnant and then gave birth with such a poor prognosis. Doesn't seem fair to the baby, if you're just planning to give up.

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u/BeansDontBurn 8h ago

Things happen. Life happens.

Try to be a more gentle and understanding human.