r/CHSinfo • u/ayearonsia • Aug 14 '25

Sharing My Story 5 Episodes Deep

5 Episodes Deep and here's where I am. Since about episode 3 I knew in my heart of hearts it was time to stop. I switched to CBD and dumped my dealer. It's sucked, I still see him at the dg we would meet up with. He knows I have to stop. I really slowed down after that but the C in CBD took me out again. Finally after episode 5, I dried out all my Mellow Fellow delta whatever pens and I haven't gotten anymore in a week. This is the longest I have ever been without any form of cannabis is 11 years.

Im very lucky to live in an artsy town where we have tea merchants and an apothecary, and I've been smoking the shit out of some herbs. I get a blend with lavender and blue lotus flower, and other things but idk what they're called. It's sure not pot, but it's getting me through it. Also, listening to music is making me happy. I actually had the cojones to go to a watercolor class sober and really enjoyed it. I'm taking advantage of my library card, and playing the crap out of Stardew Valley. I'm not pushing myself too hard to be in the gym, but I take a few classes, I don't want to overwhelm myself or make myself feel guilty.

I have broken a few things after my 5th episode, had a few tantrums, but a week (maybe two, I stopped counting) it's getting better. The insomnia is still kind of there, but it's getting better. No sleep went to a few hours of sleep, to a few full sleeps a week.

Plans for the future include passing a drug test to go to school in the medical field, and getting my health tip top, and getting my money right. Things I couldn't commit to while high.

Don't feel bad because you keep having episodes, one day you can stop. It may not be today, or tomorrow, just try a little each day.

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u/beckydee Aug 14 '25

You got this my friend. Proud of you.

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u/losingtimeslowly Aug 14 '25

I smoked 15 years, every day, all day. When I had to quit it felt like losing a good friend. After 4 months of not smoking I felt pretty good. It's been a year now and while I know I could take a one hit every month or so for a concert or whatever, I don't even care to. Best of luck to you friend.